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Rubypie41
Experienced
- Mar 25, 2024
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So my VAD date was set for this coming Monday (16th Sept).
My family had agreed and accepted my decision, then today they come round to my house and basically emotionally guilt trip me into pushing back the date by 6 weeks, calling me selfish if I do not do so.
Telling me I have to try counselling, further medication, further surgeries on my completely ruined and dysfunctional ears that cause me horrendous pain, unable to speak, relentless clicking, cracking, breathing and voice autophony, ear tubes, Botox injected in my soft palate, bioplastique filler injected into my Eustachian Tube, horrible sensations when speaking, swallowing, eating. It's a complete mess.
I feel so angry that they accepted my decision and then at the last minute (due to fly out tomorrow), they come round and give me an onslaught.
So now I have to endure another 6 weeks of daily and nightly torment, for what! Just to say I've tried even more things which could be to my further detriment. I've had countless appointments over the last 10 months and just when I have everything organised, all my affairs on order, they basically come round and say we're not letting you go right now.
My family had agreed and accepted my decision, then today they come round to my house and basically emotionally guilt trip me into pushing back the date by 6 weeks, calling me selfish if I do not do so.
Telling me I have to try counselling, further medication, further surgeries on my completely ruined and dysfunctional ears that cause me horrendous pain, unable to speak, relentless clicking, cracking, breathing and voice autophony, ear tubes, Botox injected in my soft palate, bioplastique filler injected into my Eustachian Tube, horrible sensations when speaking, swallowing, eating. It's a complete mess.
I feel so angry that they accepted my decision and then at the last minute (due to fly out tomorrow), they come round and give me an onslaught.
So now I have to endure another 6 weeks of daily and nightly torment, for what! Just to say I've tried even more things which could be to my further detriment. I've had countless appointments over the last 10 months and just when I have everything organised, all my affairs on order, they basically come round and say we're not letting you go right now.