Cancún
Experienced
- Apr 20, 2020
- 216
I feel like a need the bless" of my parents . Anyone feel that way
WorthlessTrash
Worthless
- Apr 19, 2022
- 2,429
Yeah, but I will never get it. Instead I just casually mention I won't be around much longer to hopefully lessen the blow.
It should be okay if I CTB. That way my mother won't worry about what's going to happen to me if she dies first.
It should be okay if I CTB. That way my mother won't worry about what's going to happen to me if she dies first.
Cancún
Experienced
- Apr 20, 2020
- 216
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,005
I wish we lived in a world where the option of euthanasia was available for me, and then I could tell others about my plans to ctb in advance. However in this world, many people do not respect the right to die. I would never tell family members about wanting to ctb, as they would not accept and understand my decision, they would expect me to suffer against my wishes.
loststar
Just looking for the way
- Apr 18, 2022
- 56
Yeah the only thing holding me back is my mum. Currently been on a psyche ward for two weeks and shes visited whenever she can. Not even recieved a text from my dad
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,115
No, I didn't need that. I purposely waited until my mom passed away, so as not to put her through anything like that. I feel it was better this way for her, not necessaily for me, but that's OK.
I have a good relationship with my parents, they're the main thing that's keeping me here. But looking back at it they neglected me during my childhood. They probably weren't fit to be parents. If I had a kid I would make sure to explore the kid's passions and make it pursue that from an early age, be it music or art or computer programming, etc. They never did shit for me, and they were always cheap. Always arguing, I wish they divorced. I don't blame them too much, they are both healthy and I ended up with a lot of diseases. My life would be over no matter what. But maybe I shouldn't feel so bad about causing them grief, is my point. They don't exactly deserve a medal for their mediocre parenting.
Starylain001
Body is a prison for the soul
- Apr 10, 2022
- 70
Dad loves me to death but im suffering from incurable illness and i see no other way for me than ctb. My biggest fear is to be found and get locked in psych ward. I'll never get out, physical pain will make me lose my mind there.
They let you out, they only kept you in there for life back in the 70s (where I'm from). Some people were there for about 2 years maximum, I spent 10 months there.
Starylain001
Body is a prison for the soul
- Apr 10, 2022
- 70
They let you out when youre ok. I would never be ok enough without my family members, internet and pets. Only me, bed, and my chronic pain which is a hell (even more hellish when im stressed). It would make me lose my mind.
Also, a question - you spent there 10 months after suicide attempt?
No... I got schizophrenia. My life ended during the psych ward stay because my depression got so bad. I don't know if it's a programming thing or a hardware thing... I'm thinking it's hardware, but who knows.
I hear you. If only we could tell others, preparing both them and ourselves. I wish I could go through euthanasia in a calm, serene setting, and perhaps some of those loved ones could be around me if they thought it would make them feel better. The only thing stopping me from CTB is those peoples' pain, at this point. It is a burden. I feel for you.
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