My parents have been showing me a lot of stuff about college around here. I was not paying attention at all and my mom threatened to take away my things because I was being "rude."
Well, apparently not wanting to be pushed into something I don't like is being rude. I don't get it.
I want to tell her how much I hate her but I can't just outright say that. I've yelled at her so many times just to get her to shut up and she still doesn't get it.
She's so manipulative and controlling. I remember in middle school she'd take away the internet for months if I even got one bad test score, or stepped-up to her in any way. I had only one friend and it just made my life worse every day I was isolated from the others.
My brother was independent at 14 and here I am, way past that age, still being pushed around by her.
She knows I have depression, she knows I was going to kill myself awhile ago, and here we are, back to square one of her harassing me daily, mocking my mental illness.
I want to get a job over the summer to avoid any stress of school and work. There was one opportunity I was looking at to make some money but my mom said we were all going to do the job together. ._.
I told her I don't want to do anything with her, and she said I won't have to, but they'll still be there, same thing to me honestly. When I looked at a different opportunity, like a cashier, she wants my sister to work at the same place as me, again, I don't want to be around them at all. My sister struggles with being independent, she can't do anything on her own / without guidance, but she abused me as a kid so I could care less.
I hate my family, I hate everyone in my family, with the half exception of my father, who is a decent man that actually understands me and cares about me.
