Panicking

[HelpPlease]

I'm so sick mentally I scream uncontrollably I want to be gone ASAP there is a shitload of family coming here who all hate me . I'm sick sick sick sick sick . I'm panicking and desperate af. I'm scared and dying slowly ready to go wtf have I done I have screwed up so bad my parents are old and given up on caring for me I have no one and nowhere to go . I have severe brain damage an

 

[Skyview]

You are dying ? What have you taken ? If I have mis-understood forgive me .

 

[Qdv]

Im so sorry you're suffering so intensely right now, my heart feels for you. Almost every one of your sentences I repeat to myself everyday on the daily. If theres anything I may recommend its please try to distract your mind from the panic, obsessive thoughts and worry about your family, if theres any way you can. I turn on youtube and just let channels I follow autoplay. I just watched a video called comedians opening up on anxiety and depression. It helped the tiniest bit. Just to distract.

 

[HelpPlease]

I have severe brain damage and can't function. I am in severe pain and suffering
Years and years of psych meds and ECT and addiction my brain is fried
I want to go right now I'm suffering !!!!

 

[Qdv]

I have severe brain damage and can't function. I am in severe pain and suffering
Years and years of psych meds and ECT and addiction my brain is fried

I have severe brain damage and can't function. I am in severe pain and suffering
Years and years of psych meds and ECT and addiction my brain is fried
I want to go right now I'm suffering !!!!

is there anything that brings you relief or makes you feel a little calmer? Is the anxiety of your family coming and how they feel amplifying everything?

 

[Jean4]

Is there someone you can call for help? Your therapist possibly? Nobody should be in pain.

What exactly is going on to cause the anxiety? Your family?

 

[Sensei]

I don't doubt for a second that you suffer badly. However, you must calm down. Try sitting down, breathe slowly, and count your breaths. Don't think about anything else. Just count your breaths. When you have calmed down you can think more clearly and people can give you advice which might help you.

 

[Cevapcici]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I know the feels of " dying slowly" without anyone to turn to. And well, let the haters hate and the toxic families thrive - focus on yourself. Sending you lots of supportive hugs.

 

[HelpPlease]

I don't want to die on Christmas

 

[Jean4]

I don't want to die on Christmas

We are here. What is going on and is stressing you out? Can you talk about it?

 

[Skyview]

I don't want to die on Christmas

Okay , why do you think you will die on Christmas
You have written " what have I done ." Can you explain ?

 

[HelpPlease]

I'm just extremely sick brain is fried. I am throwing up and panicking. I know I have to go but I wish I would have done this sooner. My parents are awful to me I've had enough of this life I've been suffering a long long time. I'm scared and sick. I have damage it the brain bad bad bad bad. I'm mentally ill from damage.

 

[Skyview]

I'm just extremely sick brain is fried. I am throwing up and panicking. I know I have to go but I wish I would have done this sooner. My parents are awful to me I've had enough of this life I've been suffering a long long time. I'm scared and sick. I have damage it the brain bad bad bad bad. I'm mentally ill from damage.

Which country are you in ?

 

[HelpPlease]

US. Very sick. Akathisia and dyskenesia and brain damage.

 

[Jean4]

Do you live with your parents or in a facility? Is Clozaril causing your issues?

 

[HelpPlease]

My brain is damaged from drugs
And shock treatment

 

[Jean4]

Are you living with your parents or a facility?

 

[HelpPlease]

I have a child out of wedlock on Accident I'm too overwhelmed to care for. I am very sick and dying I don't eat I've had enough
Living with parents . Hq bc e been in many facilities

 

[Skyview]

Eat something , starvation is not good . I went for 45 days without eating and it accomplished nothing except weight loss . Gather your thoughts together and if necessary go to the ER . Doesn't matter if you have no insurance , legally they must stabilize your condition , you must find relief for the pain you are suffering. I see that you are possibly considering hanging as an option .

 

[HelpPlease]

Yes I don't have anything else here

 

[Skyview]

I feel for you , it's your decision . Just know we are here for you

 

[jgm63]

I'm so sick mentally I scream uncontrollably I want to be gone ASAP there is a shitload of family coming here who all hate me . I'm sick sick sick sick sick . I'm panicking and desperate af. I'm scared and dying slowly ready to go wtf have I done I have screwed up so bad my parents are old and given up on caring for me I have no one and nowhere to go . I have severe brain damage an

If you've decided to CTB, is there a way you can plan something, so it has a better chance to go smoothly ?
What methods have you considered ?

We are here to support you.

 

[HelpPlease]

I'm suffering badly
I'm killing my parents because I scream and writhe around and beg for help. They are so angry and saying i don't want to get better
No real diagnosis except loser. I've had ct scans and mris and everything else. I know I have brain damage I can feel it I throw up all the time I can hardly get dressed etc
I don't want to hang it's all I've got tho

 

[jgm63]

I'm suffering badly
I'm killing my parents because I scream and writhe around and beg for help. They are so angry and saying i don't want to get better
No real diagnosis except loser. I've had ct scans and mris and everything else. I know I have brain damage I can feel it I throw up all the time I can hardly get dressed etc
I don't want to hang it's all I've got tho

If you were going to consider another method, would there be any way to order things online ?

 

[kiki666]

I'm so sorry, nobody deserves to go through that

 

[Pan]

I opt for hanging, personally. I would use cyanide but have been told that it is a unavailable in both USA and EU... I wish I could locate Nembutal, but that too seems inaccessible...