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wanttodie12345
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- Jul 27, 2024
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Does anyone else feel panicked over feeling like there is no viable way out? How do you control the panic long enough to plan a viable way to ctb when all the options available to you seem unreliable? I've got some pills, but nothing reliably strong + it's said pills are unreliable anyway. I've got plastic bags, but SI is said to be too strong. I can get rope, but my hands are disabled so tying knots has been very tricky. I don't have high anchor points for full suspension and partial seems hard to overcome SI and unreliable. Firearms, inert gas, street drugs aren't accessible to me. I don't have a car so traveling to train tracks or heights or deep water isn't practical. Trains and heights seems traumatizing to the public anyway, and I don't want to make the news and my family has to deal with that. We don't even have a bathtub in the house for shallow water! The thought of ctb was calming, but now I feel trapped and I don't want to impulsively try and fail to ctb.