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anesthetized

I want drugs
Jun 8, 2025
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I wont get into it but this currently undiagnosed cause of pain in my elbows is now making it so I cant even draw. drawing is so important to me, its been my "thing" since I was a toddler. its my favorite way to express myself but now I'm unable to sit down and even use my hand for more than 5 minutes. I don't know what to do, its so defeating. I haven't been drawing much in this past year because I don't have much motivation to, but the idea of stopping completely scares me. I'm losing a piece of myself. it doesn't sound like a big deal but I feel like such a big fucking baby not being able to do simple things without pain. if I cant even draw anymore, I don't really want to be around. I feel like I've lost the ability to walk.
 
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Dude i feel the same way, hang in there <3
 
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bankai

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Mar 16, 2025
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So sorry OP. Everyone should be able to indulge in their favourite activity, it's very unfortunate that pain is preventing you from doing so😢

My biggest gripe with old age is I am sure that the things I like will also fall to the wayside bit by bit.
 
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Someonewhotypes

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If you don't get the pain in both hands, I'd recommend letting it rest for a few days.
And learn to use your non-dominant hand in PC related stuff for a while.
I got pain in my right hand like 2 times in the last year, not sure what's caused it tho i suspect pc use, but it goes away after letting it rest for a while.
Now, IDK what causes your pain, but maybe it's worth getting it checked out by a doc if you can afford it.
 
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anesthetized

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If you don't get the pain in both hands, I'd recommend letting it rest for a few days.
And learn to use your non-dominant hand in PC related stuff for a while.
I got pain in my right hand like 2 times in the last year, not sure what's caused it tho i suspect pc use, but it goes away after letting it rest for a while.
Now, IDK what causes your pain, but maybe it's worth getting it checked out by a doc if you can afford it.
ive seen a rheumatologist i was referred to after dislocating my knee but ive only been given the "i dont know if this is something i can treat but lets run tests" song and dance. her current diagnosis is: im hypermobile. does hypermobility cause nerve compression? who knows
 
dead dav

dead dav

Student
Feb 27, 2025
162
I know that felling I have osteoarthritis in my fingers even basic things like writing is painful and I love fixing things which is now hard
 
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I know that felling I have osteoarthritis in my fingers even basic things like writing is painful and I love fixing things which is now hard
im so sorry. it must feel like paralysis when you cant indulge in your favorite hobbies. im wishing you a "good day" where your joints are super lubricated and pain free
 
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