Venting Pain and yet no pain

[Iris Blue]

Don't you hate it when you're at such a low you feel nothing but at the same time absolutely everything? It's just so exhausting and I can't wait for it to be over… if the Meto and Propranolol I ordered don't come in for my SN I think I'll have no other choice but to still go for it. I have a lot of the other things I need like the aquarium tests and am working on a setup for my car when I CTB in it. I've been typing up my public goodbye note to a few designed people and their personal ones in the meantime. I wrote my main suicide letter in 2 days around 10 pages long and plan to write a bunch of personal ones too. I never knew how much I was holding in until I began typing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find peace.