Venting Overwhelmed

[Ryemi]

Look, I've been trying, gave the best I've got, but it's never enough. I'm tired, but I have this specific special person which is my boyfriend he's the only person that I truly have. I'm just feeling overwhelmed because of my mother "do this" "do that" "you need to try harder" "that's not good enough" IVE BEEN TRYING EVERYTHING BUT I CANT, I FUCKING CANT, IM TRYING BUT IM TIRED… but she doesn't seem to care at all..

 

[FuneralCry]

That person really sounds so insensitive, I think that existing is already tiring and awful enough without other people making existing even more unbearable. But anyway I wish you the best, it's certainly such a cruel world we exist in where people suffer all through no fault of their own.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

From most parent's perspectives seeing their child hurting can be exasperating. When their child hurts, they hurt, too, and they just don't know what to do. Obviously, I don't know your entire situation, but I think to the contrary of what you said, seeing you in such a "bad" way is tearing her up inside. She just doesn't know what to do to help you. Maybe you could put yourself in her shoes? Imagine if your child was in desperate circumstances how you might react. It's a bad situation for both of you. I hope you both get it sorted out.

 

[Pluto]

Sometimes parents will drain us of energy and bombard us with expectations at the same time. They can even feed on the drama of the situation. It's 'tainted love'. If you have any way of distancing yourself, like a different living arrangement, that would help you to find yourself again.

 

[Bleedingheartbeat]

From most parent's perspectives seeing their child hurting can be exasperating. When their child hurts, they hurt, too, and they just don't know what to do. Obviously, I don't know your entire situation, but I think to the contrary of what you said, seeing you in such a "bad" way is tearing her up inside. She just doesn't know what to do to help you. Maybe you could put yourself in her shoes? Imagine if your child was in desperate circumstances how you might react. It's a bad situation for both of you. I hope you both get it sorted out.

This right here

 

[LaVieEnRose]

In my experience people who constantly accuse you of not trying hard will never be satisfied with the level of effort you put in. Trust that you are doing your all to the best of your capabilities, which can vary from day to day.

 

[Aisley]

You owe your mother nothing. It's the other way around, she had you, she made all choices there, and implicit in those choices are the life long obligation she signed up for, not you. Impossible to tell people this and have them know it, though. They, you, gotta figure it out for yourself. I know a woman 40 yrs old, still damaged as fuck, still trying to do everything to get a little approval. In some cases, it just never happens. Start living for yourself, not her. It's a bag of bricks you're consenting to carrying around with you everywhere, and you can withhold that consent at any time.