cosifantutti

cosifantutti

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Aug 27, 2023
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I'm being ridiculous. I worry over small and can't imagine things working out.

So I apologise for my moan because it's so insignificant. In Scotland councils are cutting back drastically. Yesterday they announced the closure of a dozen or so leisure facilities in the area my two grandsons live.
They're 11 and go here regularly with their pals to play football and an evening club for kids. One of the boys is football daft and is in a club and they use the pitches at this centre. His club's one of many and their are literally hundreds of kids that are going to lose their training facilities.

So I'm worrying about all this. In my mind this will impact on the boys mental well being significantly. From when I first had kids I worried about their mental health and that continues with my grandsons too. The degree of my worry is out of proportion. This problem is nothing and I really am sorry for moaning about something so trivial. One way or another this will resolve but my crazy head can only see doom and gloom.

As for the council, the government, the system. I despise the state of the world in small matters like this and in the massive injustices that ruin the lives of so many people

In my 20s I was very much a political activist. I was a revolutionary socialist, shouting through megaphones, going to regular meetings, selling papers, fly posting, going on demo's.

Regarding the present problem, people are planning to meet outside the council HQ. Last night I felt the way I used to feel.I was looking on line for a megaphone and imagining making an impact. But this morning I realise that even attemding the meeting would be too much for me. In my heart and passion I'd love to fight this horrible world but my mind is so damaged I can't do anything. Instead I feel paralysed with worry and wonder why we have to live in this shitty world to start with.
 
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