Our choices doesn't matter.

[shinitai_sh0jo]

I've been stopping to think about things that happened before. Awful stuff that happened when I was still young and naive.

They had an awful impact on how I view myself, my body and the others around me.

But I think it doesn't matter.
If I weren't used the way I were at the time, it would only have been by a different person.

It doesn't matter.
The same fights would still have happened.
The divorce would still have happened.
Thw bullying happened before it all, so it would have been way worse not to have any one to comminicate.
I could even have tried to cbt before.

I really wish I did, actually.

My choices didn't matter.
Maybe they do now, but...

Does that really affect anything, in the end?

 

[migimortis]

I realized the negative things that happened to me are because to a degree, I believe they are negative. But yet even with this knowledge it still hurts.

 

[shinitai_sh0jo]

I realized the negative things that happened to me are because to a degree, I believe they are negative. But yet even with this knowledge it still hurts.

Some times stuff happens, and the only thing we win are more wounds to heal, knowledge of how people can work, and sometimes (but fewer) life lessons.

Not always worth it, most not. If the food still tastes the same, I guess there's still some hope.