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opheliaoveragain
Student
- Jun 2, 2024
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Denying myself food for so long that my brain no longer produces "normal" hunger signals on its own, and then adding in obsessive exercise on top of it has become a returned to form of self harm. Gotta do something in between applying to "jobs" (in quotes bc I think most things are scams), I'm somewhere in the 100's of applications in a short period. It's only making me push down the pedal harder, longer periods of restriction, longer workouts, more reps, more method research. I want out of the hell that has become this fucking country and world.
Meant to add that it's 100's of apps with maybe 1/100 responding at all and then they wanna stick you in multiple rounds of interviews without even discussing compensation. It's a bullshit scam and everyone telling me to just keep going can get fucked.
Meant to add that it's 100's of apps with maybe 1/100 responding at all and then they wanna stick you in multiple rounds of interviews without even discussing compensation. It's a bullshit scam and everyone telling me to just keep going can get fucked.