followingfate
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- Dec 26, 2020
- 39
I've been thinking about basically running away (except legal bc I'm 18) and living with my s/o in a different state. It sounds dumb and impulsive, but I've been going over it for months now. I've had many traumas here at home. it's still very unpleasant here, with my mom yelling everyday, my brother getting bullied by her boyfriend, arguments still happening, etc. etc. I know I don't have it as bad as some people, I know that. I've wanted to leave for as long as I've been depressed. my mother has bpd, which I understand is awful for her, but god is it hard for my siblings and I to deal with too.
So my plane would be leaving in about a week. I would be leaving school, basically dropping out. I've looked into every option and the easiest and most plausible is just to go get my GED. it would be so much better for my mental health though,, as I'm already on the verge of ctb. I'm also nervous about having to deal with my mom afterwards. I'm sure she'll try to guilt trip me and everything. Would rather cut contact but I don't want to be reported as a missing person, and I want to at least be a little decent to her. we'll see I guess.
So yeah. it's either move out with my s/o, or most likely end up ctb. I feel bad leaving school with so little time left, but I really don't think my mental health would take much more. I just want to be happy.
I would appreciate if I could get some opinions,, if I sound crazy or not, or if it's a dumb idea.
So my plane would be leaving in about a week. I would be leaving school, basically dropping out. I've looked into every option and the easiest and most plausible is just to go get my GED. it would be so much better for my mental health though,, as I'm already on the verge of ctb. I'm also nervous about having to deal with my mom afterwards. I'm sure she'll try to guilt trip me and everything. Would rather cut contact but I don't want to be reported as a missing person, and I want to at least be a little decent to her. we'll see I guess.
So yeah. it's either move out with my s/o, or most likely end up ctb. I feel bad leaving school with so little time left, but I really don't think my mental health would take much more. I just want to be happy.
I would appreciate if I could get some opinions,, if I sound crazy or not, or if it's a dumb idea.