prana
Country boy
- Jul 15, 2024
- 34
I took a ton of DMT in 2022 and I had a psychotic break. The only unpleasant thing about it was police interactions. Other than that I was truly happy for the first time in my life. My brain just made up whatever I needed. I was lonely and needed to feel needed so my brain made up a fake family to take care of. There was a lot of other stuff too. I felt so happy and close to God.
I hate living in reality. Other drugs provide a brief reprieve but its nowhere near the same as genuine psychosis. I wish more than anything I could just live in my own reality for the rest of my life. Unfortunately I was not able to hold down a job and FBI involvement pushed my loved ones away too.
Every day it wears me down more and more and I don't have a reason to stay. I just want to go to Heaven like I believed during those few months. If I could induce it again I honestly would.
I hate living in reality. Other drugs provide a brief reprieve but its nowhere near the same as genuine psychosis. I wish more than anything I could just live in my own reality for the rest of my life. Unfortunately I was not able to hold down a job and FBI involvement pushed my loved ones away too.
Every day it wears me down more and more and I don't have a reason to stay. I just want to go to Heaven like I believed during those few months. If I could induce it again I honestly would.