Unattainable666
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2023
- 1,346
Well, I'm here again - tired of hearing from me? Time is ticking and I;m ready to go . Last check is the 15th hopefully it will cover my cremation, but quite honestly when I think about it once I ctb I will be free it doesn't matter what happens to my body ( won't give a fuck because well - I won't be here! I can honestly feel myself slipping away each day. Getting up is so difficult - when I wake up Im so sad that I didnt die during the night. I hate everything and everyone around me - this fucked up world has changed me from a nice giving caring person to one who doesn't give a shit about anybody. I'm beaten down and I can't get up. Moving where I did was the proverbial nail in the coffin, wish I'd seen it beforehand. The people here are not human I've not found one person who is actually a caring human being they're all so fake. They talk about each other behind their backs and smile in their face. Then there's the fat ugly bitch from the apartment complex who still after three months refuses to give me my deposit back I had to file a lawsuit and now they're lying and saying I never gave them my address. I am so angry at everything and everyone it's good I don't own a gun. The only thing that keeps me from that is the fact that I don't want to go to prison with a bunch of fucking assholes from this state. I'm so grateful for SS. More than you all will ever know. I have no one other than my SS family and you're understanding and kind words have been a big comfort for me. My time is coming to an end and I will soon be with Chris. I will finally be at peace.
