one step closer

[No One]

so someone will buy my laptop and I'm gonna have a good amount of money to travel outside my place. I don't have a plan to suicide but I'm considering hanging or drowning on the sea, I'm planning to spend good days by my own before I did it. all of I'm afraid of is my social anxiety and how it makes me stuck on my home, I will have a session with a psychiatric before I leave to try to handle it for just seven days. wish me luck and if you have any tips please tell me
I'm just trying to force myself to do it right