Discussion One last magic mushrooms/truffles before CTB?

[DeathPurgatory]

In the past year I tripped a lot but I ended having a psychotic
/bipolar/mania break and put on a psych ward.. This was the most unpleasant thing I lived plus I destroy many things on my psycotich episode (that is my mayn reason I want to CTB so hard) .. Many of u surely are like why this woman is thinking on a last trip? Well, now I feel very stable, I don't take antipsycotich medications anymore, only antidepressants, sleeping pills and valproic acid as mood stabilizer (too much synthetic shit that doesn't improve anything on my mood), I would like to have one last time that feeling(It would be perfect the day before CTB) of being connected to everything (mystical experience), t, know that is something more than this 3D world and for what I could feel it is pure love, no guilt, oneness... and of course heIp me of getting rid of my guilt.
Someone was thinking about something similar?

 

[Soul]

Hello. If you want to, and aren't afraid, why not? It's probably not something I would do just before my departure date, but I'm not you.

 

[DeathPurgatory]

Hello. If you want to, and aren't afraid, why not? It's probably not something I would do just before my departure date, but I'm not you.

What would you do before your departure date?

 

[Soul]

What would you do before your departure date?

I haven't formulated any particular plans, maybe because I have a progressive disease that doesn't let me lively up myself much. But there will be music. And my cats.

 

[mesohappy]

I would like to do mushrooms one last time..Tonight would be perfect.The weather has been pleasant,and the moon is going to be full,big and bright.And Ill be alone with no distractions.I really think it would help me snap out of this daze/hole/funk Ive been in lately,at least for a night."Being connected to everything(mystical experience),pure love,no guilt,oneness" you described it perfectly.I just don't know where to get any right now.(My plug moved out of state).

 

[Sensei]

We have some things in common, it seems. I'm bipolar too and I've been dabbling a little in hallucinogens. I suffer from bipolar disorder II and I've only used legal hallucinogens, though. I think it's an excellent idea to trip the day before you leave. There are basically four outcomes: 1) You get an understanding of life that is so profound that you decide to stay alive. 2) You get insights which don't make you want to stay alive, but give you solace before your exit. 3) You trip, but it's nothing special. No harm done. 4) You have a horror trip and get a psychosis. Then you just make sure to recover and exit later on.

Before you decide on any of this, I think you should ask yourself an important question, though. Is it possible that you're having a depressive episode now? If so, you're not thinking entirely rationally and you should probably wait before doing something that can't be undone.

 

[TAW122]

If you want to try it before you CTB, you can, it's your decision and your body. While I never tried shrooms, LSD, or drugs (nor do I wish to personally), I know that some people do it for copes and other personal reasons which is each to their own. Either way, as long as you are at peace with your decision, then that is all that matters.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I'm confused by the OP. The invitation is to respond to the question of whether others are thinking something similar.

What is "something"? To trip one last time before ctb?

Or is the "something" thinking about chasing a reward they got in the past from a substance, but may not achieve again, and which in fact may also cause a massive punishment, also achieved in the past?

OP, it's your yard, and you've sent an invitation to visit it and engage. Some may come over and water the weeds and tell you they're actually prize-winning, highly nutritious vegetables. Some may point out weeds and you can argue that no, they're actually vegetable hybrids. Some may tell you what they do in their own yards, and you'll take the advice that applies to whatever it is that you're actually seeking here, that only you can know. Maybe you don't know, and the advice will help you discover it.

I heard your invitation. I sauntered over from my own yard and looked. My observation is that it's your yard. I sincerely hope you find whatever you seek that helps you to achieve the yard you want. Ima head back over to tend my own now. I'll put a shout out later if I find I'm lacking in tools for tackling a particularly nasty invading plant or animal species, the bastards.

 

[Reyki6667]

Microdosing will save you from any risks. Since you wont trip and there are severals antagonists if yiu need a stopper.

 

[DeathPurgatory]

We have some things in common, it seems. I'm bipolar too and I've been dabbling a little in hallucinogens. I suffer from bipolar disorder II and I've only used legal hallucinogens, though. I think it's an excellent idea to trip the day before you leave. There are basically four outcomes: 1) You get an understanding of life that is so profound that you decide to stay alive. 2) You get insights which don't make you want to stay alive, but give you solace before your exit. 3) You trip, but it's nothing special. No harm done. 4) You have a horror trip and get a psychosis. Then you just make sure to recover and exit later on.

Before you decide on any of this, I think you should ask yourself an important question, though. Is it possible that you're having a depressive episode now? If so, you're not thinking entirely rationally and you should probably wait before doing something that can't be undone.

I thing that I need to forgive myself before living this world, is very important to leave it without feeling guilty. I also wanna experience that state of oneness/feeling blissful/and true-pure love.

 

[Sensei]

I thing that I need to forgive myself before living this world, is very important to leave it without feeling guilty. I also wanna experience that state of oneness/feeling blissful/and true-pure love.

Sounds reasonable. But, again, could it be that you have a depressive episode now that makes you suicidal? I'd wait if I were you.