Discussion Once you've had suicidal planning or a "lower" episode, do you find it easier to sink back to that place?

[Marty Fox]

Hi folks,
Without getting into too much backstory, been majorly up and down over the years. And I feel like it took weeks, possibly months of depression and suicidal thoughts to get to that point I felt almost ready to kill myself (couple near attempts in the past).

Anyways, mood continues to go up and down, and may even be up for a longer time. But I feel as though only one trigger (sometimes no trigger) and it quickly sinks back to the lowest spot left off. There isn't a slow descend back into that phase of literally thinking and planning all day every day.

Curious to other people's thoughts.

Thanks

 

[Nem]

Sorry to hear. I can only say sort of because I first became suicidal at 18 when dealing with severe depression. I miraculously recovered and never really considered it again until my dr nearly killed me. Ever since then, it's just been a constant train of suicidal thoughts that won't go away. This is all from being in a relationship with a certified sociopath
Peace/hugs