Sito
Member
- May 17, 2023
- 8
I am sick of keeping my head above water. I have done nothing since 20 but fail starting up buisness and careers. About 2 months ago I took up selling insurance and its fallen through and this week I have to go back to full time work at a local warehouse slaving for basically min wage. I recently took out a life insurance policy on my mother and once she passes I'm going to wrap my things like selling the house and maybe trying to leave money for my kid. I got cheated on by a woman I settled for, my dating life has been non-existent for 5 years...
Even my own mother thinks I suck and constantly berates me and even gets to a point of racism since I'm mixed.
I have a good handful of friends I met a couple years ago and they make life worth looking forward to.
I try to change but my habits such as thc, drinking, and gambling from being younger and they've really stuck.
I always get into sick withdrawals when I stop than I always go back.
I have zero confidence no matter what I do to try and build it up I can never stay.
I don't want to die or feel like this.
I don't want to reach out and be put in some ward.
I need money I guess. They say money doesn't solve your problems, but it does because I know if I have even $1000 to my name I wouldn't want to kill myself.
Even my own mother thinks I suck and constantly berates me and even gets to a point of racism since I'm mixed.
I have a good handful of friends I met a couple years ago and they make life worth looking forward to.
I try to change but my habits such as thc, drinking, and gambling from being younger and they've really stuck.
I always get into sick withdrawals when I stop than I always go back.
I have zero confidence no matter what I do to try and build it up I can never stay.
I don't want to die or feel like this.
I don't want to reach out and be put in some ward.
I need money I guess. They say money doesn't solve your problems, but it does because I know if I have even $1000 to my name I wouldn't want to kill myself.