Venting Old Bitch Threatened Me...

[DeprivedofLife666]

My grandma is sick and tried to threaten me by fear mongering me. She got pissed because I don't like getting up in the morning because I SUFFER FROM FUCKING DEPRESSION and can't bring myself to get up at 7am like her. Then she has the fucking audacity to say, " I have depression too doesn't mean I can stay in bed till 1pm you lazy fat-ass whore!" Number 1. I'm not a whore, I'm still a virgin. Number 2. I'm really fucking sick of being fat shamed and called ugly names by her. I honestly fucking hope she has COVID and dies. Maybe then I'll finally be free and happy while she rots in the ground. If she doesn't have COVID then I'm going back on my first method by overdosing on painkillers BECAUSE I'M SO FUCKING DONE WITH THIS SHIT!!!!

 

[DrownFeather]

Sorry for your struggles your grandma seems a horrible person for doing that to you, depression is serious problem and not have courage to get up early is because of it, are able to leave her and go to other city/place?

 

[Of The Universe]

That old bitch!

 

[FuneralCry]

Some people really are so cruel and awful and they are capable of making our lives much worse. It must be so horrible having to deal with someone like that. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

Sorry for your struggles your grandma seems a horrible person for doing that to you, depression is serious problem and not have courage to get up early is because of it, are able to leave her and go to other city/place?

No I'm stuck living with her until I eventually save a Quart or gallon size bag filled with celexa and painkillers and off myself. I was so mad that I forgot to post what she threatened me with. She threatened me with "Oh is that what your excuse is when they ship you off to a group house since you don't want to live with me? They aren't gonna let you sleep all day there are RULES..."

Dumb cunt. Group Homes like that are for foster kids in the system, They aren't gonna put me in a goddamn controlled environment any fucking ways. SHE is the reason I'm so depressed. I`d probably be happier if she either died or if I could get help in getting out of her house. But I already know suicide is the only thing that will work.

 

[Huntfish34]

Damnt ,. That's pretty crazy shit. Have some Bitch ass relatives but never anything quite like that.

I wish you the best in trying to maneuver through this situation. Thoughts and prayers to you.

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

Wait, so you're going to kill yourself instead of at least attempting to get out of that house and maybe be happy... Glad to know - ignored.

I posted multiple times why I can't get out of her house. Ignored? Meh ok, kind of sad when someone would rather put me on ignore rather than find out or just ask why I can't just leave.

 

[DrownFeather]

No I'm stuck living with her until I eventually save a Quart or gallon size bag filled with celexa and painkillers and off myself. I was so mad that I forgot to post what she threatened me with. She threatened me with "Oh is that what your excuse is when they ship you off to a group house since you don't want to live with me? They aren't gonna let you sleep all day there are RULES..."

Dumb cunt. Group Homes like that are for foster kids in the system, They aren't gonna put me in a goddamn controlled environment any fucking ways. SHE is the reason I'm so depressed. I`d probably be happier if she either died or if I could get help in getting out of her house. But I already know suicide is the only thing that will work.

Are you able to work? Might be able to rent somewhere at least for few days to get your head cool, or maybe just find girlfriend/boyfriend and live with him/her

 

[SpaceCadet]

Just by being childfree i guess you are a great person, getting away from negative people can give you a new mindset, hopefully you can try that before ctb, i agree with @DrownFeather. Sending you a bear hug

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

Just by being childfree i guess you are a great person, getting away from negative people can give you a new mindset, hopefully you can try that before ctb, sending you a bear hug

Thanks

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

How old are you, OP?

 

[SpaceCadet]

Come on guys have some empathy with op, don't get offtopic

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

She put me on disability, And she flips her shit if tell her I don't want to be on disability I want to get a job and save up money for my own place. She wants that money and the free benefits that comes with, that's all. I can't drive either. No license and they refuse to let me learn. And she has me on a joint account even though I didn't want that, I wanted my own account.​

How old are you, OP?

31

 

[summers]

Yeah, I never told anyone not to ctb.

I think you forgot this site isn't pro suicide, only pro choice, and I would hardly be the only person on this site to question whether someone has thought out that decision, or tried other things, as you are doing in this very thread.

That's fine, but you did it over and over again. You're right, I usually ask if there's another option. But one thing I never do is bring someone else into the equation. It doesn't matter if someone else is going to get hurt because you ctb. That's probably the case for most people on here. Honestly, I'm sorry for your loss. But your choice to ctb is going to cause someone else just as much pain as you feel.

If someone is going live, it has to be for themselves. Like in the other thread, she loved her husband, but she can't and shouldn't live for him or to protect him. She has to do what's best for her. Just like you have to do what's best for you, and not the people who are going to miss you.

I'm sorry if I was insensitive to you in the other thread. I do understand where you're coming from, and I'm sure you feel the pain of that loss every day.

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

So am I still ignored even though I said why I can't leave?

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

I didn't expect my thread to turn out like that. I was just venting without trying to sound like a broken record because being forced to live the way my grandparents want me to live and not being able or free to live the way I want to live is reason enough to want to die, in my eyes at least. I'm probably victim blaming my own self but I truly regret reaching out to my narcissist grandma when I was still in my teens. All of my other relatives were right about this bitch. Now I really don't have anyone who can come get me because they want nothing to do with her.

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

I honestly hope she has covid because she's been sick for three days now but refuses medical attention.

 

[_Seeking]

I didn't expect my thread to turn out like that. I was just venting without trying to sound like a broken record because being forced to live the way my grandparents want me to live and not being able or free to live the way I want to live is reason enough to want to die, in my eyes at least. I'm probably victim blaming my own self but I truly regret reaching out to my narcissist grandma when I was still in my teens. All of my other relatives were right about this bitch. Now I really don't have anyone who can come get me because they want nothing to do with her.

Are you able to contact any of your other relatives for help? It sounds like your Grandma is practicing disability fraud because she is taking your money and you claim you are able to work. She could be reported, and then maybe a relative could give you a hand until you get settled away from her?

My mom wanted me to take care of my dad after she died even though he is a narcissist and extremely manipulative and abusive. At first I felt so much guilt because I promised and stayed with him but I could not handle it, I felt like I had no choice but to live with him because that was drilled into my head like I was trapped. Then after a year of feeling unsafe, I just left for my own place and it is such a relief. When you are in the situation, it really does feel like you have no choice, but once you get away they lose all their power and it becomes hard to believe that you thought you had to stay.

 

[virgilwalks]

I posted multiple times why I can't get out of her house. Ignored? Meh ok, kind of sad when someone would rather put me on ignore rather than find out or just ask why I can't just leave.

why can't you get out of her house ?

 

[Cathy Ames]

Are you able to contact any of your other relatives for help? It sounds like your Grandma is practicing disability fraud because she is taking your money and you claim you are able to work. She could be reported, and then maybe a relative could give you a hand until you get settled away from her?

That's a good idea, @DeprivedofLife666. You can report disability fraud. But you must think this through very carefully. I still think it would be a good idea to do as you mentioned in that other post of yours.

[This one.]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/can-a-therapist-please-read.87926/

 

[Insomniac]

My grandma is sick and tried to threaten me by fear mongering me. She got pissed because I don't like getting up in the morning because I SUFFER FROM FUCKING DEPRESSION and can't bring myself to get up at 7am like her. Then she has the fucking audacity to say, " I have depression too doesn't mean I can stay in bed till 1pm you lazy fat-ass whore!" Number 1. I'm not a whore, I'm still a virgin. Number 2. I'm really fucking sick of being fat shamed and called ugly names by her. I honestly fucking hope she has COVID and dies. Maybe then I'll finally be free and happy while she rots in the ground. If she doesn't have COVID then I'm going back on my first method by overdosing on painkillers BECAUSE I'M SO FUCKING DONE WITH THIS SHIT!!!!

your own grandma called you a whore? wow. just wow.

Sorry, that was a knee-jerk reaction

that honestly was. yo wtf anyway. blocking op and shaming them for their reason to die? not cool bro

 

[ornitier199]

Wait, so you're going to kill yourself instead of at least attempting to get out of that house and maybe be happy... Glad to know - ignored.

Why reply in the first place then?

Come on guys have some empathy with op, don't get offtopic

why can't you get out of her house ?

Not everybody can up and leave a situation, or willing become homeless and endure even more pain.
Everybody reasons to ctb is their own and is not to be ridiculed in anyway shape or form. If it bothers you, make a u-turn and walk along.

 

[Symbiote]

We come on here to vent, to be heard, and sometimes seek advice because the system and family outside of here have given us tough love or failed to believe in us as a person. OP's grandma sounds like a bitch, probably bitter and wondering why a 31-year old lady is living in her house instead of on her own. What we don't know is that we were never given the tools or support to make it out their on our own. Not all of us can summon the energy to seek out a job or put in an online job application. The cost of living has gone up as well all around the world and the competition for entry level jobs is tighter than ever.

This is the situation that a lot of us have dealt with and we try to make the best of what we can. I'm glad OP can have a voice to vent her concerns on this forum, we as people should acknowledge her voice and if we don't have anything nice to say about her situation, then we should bite our tongue and scroll past.

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

Thanks everyone for listening to my rant. My living situation is still rather embarrassing though. My granny is still sick and I'm wishing very hard that she would just die even if that sounds cruel but so is what she is doing to me.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

Omg that's terrible, I'm so sorry OP. Family is supposed to be there for you not to bring you down. Old people are vile.

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

Are you able to work? Might be able to rent somewhere at least for few days to get your head cool, or maybe just find girlfriend/boyfriend and live with him/her

Sadly I have no friends or a boyfriend because of her. She watches waaaay too much Faux News (Fox News)

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

Just wanted to update instead of making a new thread. Fucking sick hag made me get up early and fix her one slice of buttered toast. So I did, even burnt my damn thumb, buttered the damn thing as best as I could even though we live in a drafty old house and the GLASS Butter dish tends to get COLD when it's on the counter by the WINDOW and firms the butter. Anyway, did that and served it to her. Her response, "This fucking Butter isn't melted!!!! Who serves their sick grandmother cold toast!!! Get out of my fucking way you fat lazy bitch I'll make it my self, go back to bed you lazy whore!!!! God I wish I could have a different life, what did I do to deserve this!!!" You know, being a typical toxic narcissistic abuser. Then had to make all of these unnecessary moans and groans and even "shaking" as if to let the whole goddamn world know that she has a little cold. I'm honestly wondering if she's even really sick or just faking, because she's pulled this stunt before for sympathy points and attention. If anything, I should be the one asking what I did to deserve this bullshit. I'm just so fucking done and tired of being stuck in this hell! CTB is looking more and more like paradise. And yes I did read that overdosing on Acetaminophen can kill you even if you were to throw it up because you can still destroy your liver and die. I'd rather have a painful death than deal with this toxic bitch.

 

[virgilwalks]

Why reply in the first place then?





Not everybody can up and leave a situation, or willing become homeless and endure even more pain.
Everybody reasons to ctb is their own and is not to be ridiculed in anyway shape or form. If it bothers you, make a u-turn and walk along.

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Why reply in the first place then?





Not everybody can up and leave a situation, or willing become homeless and endure even more pain.
Everybody reasons to ctb is their own and is not to be ridiculed in anyway shape or form. If it bothers you, make a u-turn and walk t was not to be insensitive or unsympathetic or unsupportive. you mentioned you might have described why it wasn't an option to leave in another post but I didn't see it.

Why reply in the first place then?





Not everybody can up and leave a situation, or willing become homeless and endure even more pain.
Everybody reasons to ctb is their own and is not to be ridiculed in anyway shape or form. If it bothers you, make a u-turn and walk along.

it wasn't to be ridiculed - or insensitive - I thought maybe you'd mentioned a reason somewhere else other than staying there or being homeless. It was just trying to understand If there might be other options for you to find support.