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harlemriver

harlemriver

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Sep 10, 2023
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A while ago i promised myself to stop and try to be a better person for one month, see if I could help myself and others. Turns out some things just don't change, huh? I'm still a burden to everyone that knows me and I can't stand being here anymore. I've tried going out everyday, studying, working, saying kind words to others and to myself, taking my pills. But it didn't work. The toughts kept coming in. That month ends on october 14th, on 17 days for now. I know i'm not making it. It's time to go. So, i need help. I'm planing on dying from suffocation: i'll take 150mg quetiapine (sleeping pill), and quite a bit of alcohol, enough to get me calm, i'll tie 10 grocery store bags around my face while wearing a mask (to try to harden my breathing) and i'll try to tie down my arms. if that doesn't work, i'll try jumping. Any tips? Any other methods? I just need to go, please help me. I have lived with suicidal toughts since i remember, please let me find peace just this once.
 
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avaruus

avaruus

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Aug 17, 2022
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I'm sorry for your suffering :(

Hanging is quite easily accessible method, have you thought about that?

I wish you well!
 
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harlemriver

harlemriver

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Sep 10, 2023
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I'm sorry for your suffering :(

Hanging is quite easily accessible method, have you thought about that?

I wish you well!
Yes!! I've read about parcial hanging, but i don't have a support, i wonder if i can do it with a single belt while layed down or sitted.
 
avaruus

avaruus

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Aug 17, 2022
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Yes!! I've read about parcial hanging, but i don't have a support, i wonder if i can do it with a single belt while layed down or sitted.
You mean kinda like hanging but without the ligature being tied to anywhere?

If so, there is a method called 'night-night'
I'm not sure how reliable it is tho, i've heard only about failed attempts..

Jumping, like you mentioned, is a plausible method also, but you need courage and very high place to jump.
How high have you planned to jump from?
 
harlemriver

harlemriver

Member
Sep 10, 2023
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You mean kinda like hanging but without the ligature being tied to anywhere?

If so, there is a method called 'night-night'
I'm not sure how reliable it is tho, i've heard only about failed attempts..

Jumping, like you mentioned, is a plausible method also, but you need courage and very high place to jump.
How high have you planned to jump from?
Thank you!! I might go with that. I was planning on jumping from the 14th floor of a mall but that would be my last option.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It's really understandable just wishing to be at peace, I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom you are searching for.
 

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