obsession with keeping going, moving.

[unabletocope]

i've needed people to be there for me, to not be frantically on the move, on the go to an extent where i'm left spitting up dust. i did my best to put this across to a therapist, they told me i was stuck in my own head. i have tried to put this across to people while failing to and now my life is fucked. i think i will kill myself soon, purely on the basis that too many people assume i can't be independent while prohibiting and trampling over the factors and issues that affect me having an independent life.
people put more energy into trying to keep you going, as opposed to helping you work through the things that fuck you up. if you can't face the things that screw you up, how can you keep going?

 

[lizzywizzy09]

This happened to me. Omg. I feel even worse that I let people dictate certain things to me. I needed help through things that were harming me, instead I got pulled in every other direction. The things that screwed me up have utterly destroyed me and I just need a way out.

 

[unabletocope]

This happened to me. Omg. I feel even worse that I let people dictate certain things to me. I needed help through things that were harming me, instead I got pulled in every other direction. The things that screwed me up have utterly destroyed me and I just need a way out.

it's not always a case that someone 'lets' someone else do this, sometimes the people you ask for help from will just insist on not acknowledging it and put all their energy into trying to suppress the issues, a lot of modern therapy revolves around lecturing and suppressing

 

[lizzywizzy09]

it's not always a case that someone 'lets' someone else do this, sometimes the people you ask for help from will just insist on not acknowledging it and put all their energy into trying to suppress the issues, a lot of modern therapy revolves around lecturing and suppressing

Yes, this happened to me as well. Ugh, I wish I could go back and tell certain "professionals" to fuck off.

 

[unabletocope]

Yes, this happened to me as well. Ugh, I wish I could go back and tell certain "professionals" to fuck off.

my sympathies. for what's its worth i feel the same way, i got lucky and called one of mine out, they went off on a weird tangent about how they had helped people who had been raped and i called them out on that as well, it can be done and who knows, maybe you were stronger at the time than you give yourself credit for.