Help Numb

[Swede16]

Everyday I convince myself to exist one more day, hoping for a miracle to fill the emptiness in my soul. And it never happens. It doesn't work that way but hope pushes me through every second of my life. I keep questioning about my purpose and I am now in a phase where I don't want to question it any further. I think even a miracle could not make me happy. I am so tired being sad and confused. I sleep everyday wishing that my body disintegrates into atoms. I keep wishing that I fade into thin air and memories about me fades. It is so unfair that people are not given consent to death. I wish people are more understanding when one wishes to disappear. I want it to be easy on me and for every one around me.

 

[EmptySteph62]

I get that, it's never made sense to me why people can be so humane when it comes to euthanizing an animal in pain but as soon as another person is suffering so badly its suddenly "cruel" to allow them to end things.
Anyway hope things get better for you. Hugs.