Now or later ?

[Tig]

How many people would CTB immediately, today if they possessed everything necessary for their chosen method ?
What's your age group,
20 and under,
21 to 30,
30 to 40,
40 to 50,
50 and over ?

 

[whywere]

Age is a number, NOT a thought, thought process or what one would do.

CTB to/for me does not have age in the equation as much as so many other aspects like finances, having a partner, and so much else.

I am 68 and I have been suicidal since the get go and age has had no influence at all.

I have been poor and very well off, homeless and hungry and not and this is much more of a motivating factor, read suicidal increase, than getting older or any age in general.

Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I'd be long gone if I could just peacefully free myself from this existence I see as so futile and torturous, I should have ceased existing a long time ago but really I never should have suffered at all. I wish I could just erase my existence completely as to me existence is such a cruel, terrible tragedy that just brings pain and suffering, I only see non-existence as desirable, I truly was never meant to exist here, personally I just don't see value in prolonging suffering but rather I just wish to never suffer again instead, I just wish for peace from all the suffering.

 

[LunarLight]

I'm 26 and I have everything necessary to CTB. I'm waiting for the right time though, as I don't feel super suicidal right now. Probably gonna postpone CTB until I have no more money for heroin.

 

[BlueButterfly19]

If you had asked me this about a couple years ago while I was having active psychosis? Absolutely yes. Today? Not so much. Life for me right now is not great, but not horrible either. I feel like I'm running in a hamster wheel just trying to keep up with cost of living slaving away my life working at a job I am great at but is pretty boring to me and barely pays my expenses (it used to excite me but it's so monotonous now I just don't care anymore, and too depressed to do anything about it). But I still have friends that care about me and I try to enjoy my time when I clock out of work. But I fear either external factors out of my control like global warming or inflation or cost of living sky rocketing or anti-abortion, anti-trans laws, or any other horrible injustices in the world would eventually push me to the edge. Or another psychotic break would definitely push me to do it immediately.

 

[lalaloopsy]

i'm 22, and i would be extremely comforted by having everything i needed to ctb. but i wouldnt do it immediately. i want to do some things for the last time, and i have things i want to say, to try and make it hurt less for the people that care about me. i think it would take maybe a month for me to be comofrtably ready.

 

[AuroraB]

I'm 62.5 and I have everything I need to CTB- 3 different methods right now plus easy access to a high rise building balcony over 20 stories up. Right now, as blah as the world is, fucking sucks, really, I'm waiting for fascism, climate collape, when my $ runs out. I've had some epic bucket list adventures in the last 3 years and I'm planning a few more. If I found out I had cancer or another hard core disease, I would NOT accept treatment. If I end up injured or diseased in any way that prevents me from cycling or driving (meaning I become vision-impaired), I'm done immediately. Right now, I'd be suprised if I have 5 more years with the way climate is collapsing around the world. If fascism wins in next month's election, could be much sooner. Supplies are ready to go for whenever the time becomes "now."

 

[theolivanderroach]

I'm 27. I'd need about a week to get rid of some stuff I have I don't want people finding. But if that was already taken care of, then yes I'd ctb immediately. There's no goodbyes I want to make or anything I want to see or do for the last time.

 

[legoshi]

I technically have what is needed to CTB. I don't have the recommended drugs for the SN method, but I do have the SN. Im actually feeling really good at the moment and not having constant CTB thoughts. I still think about it, but it's not a constant thought anymore. If I felt like I felt when I was seeking methods, it's a good chance but then again who knows. I have had the SN for a few weeks now and haven't used it. Getting the strength to CTB is really hard. I keep saying oh o don't have the recommended drugs, I need those but I think it's just me making excuses cause I am scared to CTB. If I died tonight I would be happy but me being the one to do it, when I have the capabilities is really hard.

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Yeah I think if I had the means to I'd be gone by this point. Partially due to my own impulsivity but also just knowing how I was a few years ago. I wouldn't want to have the chance to relive that.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm mid 40's. I've had ideation since I was 10 to varying intensities. A couple of years back, I acquired everything needed for the SN method. Seemed wise to be prepared at least. I don't intend to go until my Dad does. That has always been my intention although, I suppose I haven't been in a strong position to actually attempt until relatively recently, asides from travelling to a bridge once to check it out I suppose. I didn't really have the intention to jump that day though.

Do you think impulsivity relates to age?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm 19 and I'd ctb immediately if I had N or even SN. I wouldn't hesitate at all unless if I were to research a bit more about the method to make sure that the chances of me succeeding is as high as possible

 

[Marco77]

Immediately, any time is good. I don't have what I need to do it, I'll have to wait. Imagine if I had everything, what would keep me in this disgusting existence for just one second longer? Everything here horrifies me, it's the most undesirable place in the universe.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

44 here. Tbh, just reading your post and thinking about the possibility makes my SI kick in, and I am terrified. Maybe in the past? I think most methods on here are too scary for me. I always promise myself If I should find myself in a situation where I can jump, I will. But I can't guarantee it. Damn SI.

 

[kvorumese]

I cannot die just now. I have a couple projects I want to finish and a country I want to visit. As soon as I'm done with these, I can start writing notes