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arnxxx
Experienced
- Mar 8, 2024
- 254
Ive been depressed for 1.5 years now and before that I had only depressive periods. Now it's all day suffering everyday.
I tried therapy for 3+ years, 2 hospitalisations, different kinds of meds, rTMS, ketamine. The result: FEELING EVEN WORSE. I fucking hate it. Why can't I just recover. Even if I recovered for 5% I'd have the idea I'm recovering. But no the depression has only gotten worse. The days are tougher to get through.
I am seriously driven into suicidal ideation. If life can't give me peace ... Well you know.
Why can't it just get better. Why am I forced to live like this. I don't even want to live anymore. I wish I was dead and got some goddamn peace.
I tried therapy for 3+ years, 2 hospitalisations, different kinds of meds, rTMS, ketamine. The result: FEELING EVEN WORSE. I fucking hate it. Why can't I just recover. Even if I recovered for 5% I'd have the idea I'm recovering. But no the depression has only gotten worse. The days are tougher to get through.
I am seriously driven into suicidal ideation. If life can't give me peace ... Well you know.
Why can't it just get better. Why am I forced to live like this. I don't even want to live anymore. I wish I was dead and got some goddamn peace.