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starscourge_19
18 yr old failure who fell from grace hard
- Aug 24, 2022
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Started with Covid pandemic forcing me to move from the country where all my friends were to a place where I knew no one and had to do online school. Then I moved to a different country for my final year of school and ofcourse this school ended up being a corrupt shithole where there was barely any people or girls (this matters later on). It tanked my straight A grades and lifelong buildup to a good university in a single year and I missed my university offers by exactly 1 mark (479/600 instead of 480/600) and have to go to a worse average one despite being the golden boy of my family I legit wanna die so badly. I had to change school curriculums three times over these two years and it was so painful dealing with each change.It wasn't even my fault.
In the 2020 lockdown I actually set a self improvement regime for myself and lost 15 kilos, cared about my hair, fixed my skin, puberty made me much better looking to the point I was considered quite decent looking and 70% of the people I knew didn't even recognize me upon meeting me again. I was excited to go back to school and show those who looked down on me how much I improved, but then I had to leave the country.
Now I'm 18 with barely any experience with girls compared to my friends who stayed in the school I was at. I wasn't even given the chance. I had to watch all the fun my friends had fir the past two years on Snapchat while I rotted. I'm actually a failure in every aspect of life and now all this progress is going down the drain slowly as I rot in depression. My family still loves me but they don't care about any of my issues and say I'm whining even though I'm trying to hold myself together
Also during all this my grandfather passed away and my father was diagnosed with serious health problems during exam season. So much went wrong for me, I feel as if I am being punished for something even though I was always such a good person.
In the 2020 lockdown I actually set a self improvement regime for myself and lost 15 kilos, cared about my hair, fixed my skin, puberty made me much better looking to the point I was considered quite decent looking and 70% of the people I knew didn't even recognize me upon meeting me again. I was excited to go back to school and show those who looked down on me how much I improved, but then I had to leave the country.
Now I'm 18 with barely any experience with girls compared to my friends who stayed in the school I was at. I wasn't even given the chance. I had to watch all the fun my friends had fir the past two years on Snapchat while I rotted. I'm actually a failure in every aspect of life and now all this progress is going down the drain slowly as I rot in depression. My family still loves me but they don't care about any of my issues and say I'm whining even though I'm trying to hold myself together
Also during all this my grandfather passed away and my father was diagnosed with serious health problems during exam season. So much went wrong for me, I feel as if I am being punished for something even though I was always such a good person.
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