Venting Notes

[Dead beat dad]

So in my previous attempts to ctb I only ever once wrote a note and it was 4 lines or so of nonsense (probably reflecting my state of mind).
Since then in an effort to improve my odds of success as part of my 'training' I've tried to make some practice notes, but this is proving to be vexing.
Trying to articulate the voices of your own private death row is so complicated.
Usually I get through about half a page and lose my rag as I've not come up with anything meaningful for anyone.
Bit like this thread really.
Anyone share this experience and have any helpful tips for me?

 

[Redt2go]

Read other suicide notes... use them as a template

 

[Robbyna]

Is there a song, poem, book, piece of art that encompasses your feelings? How important is leaving a note for you? I've decided not to leave one. The state of my life is enough of an explanation and I tell the people I love that I love them all the time, so much so that I think they'll still be able to recall my voice long after I'm gone...soon I hope.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Thanks for your help.
I think if I don't leave a note it may look like an accident as I'm not currently sharing my feelings with anyone except here.
That is a good idea about poems and music and there are many things that spring to mind that would go some way to helping me.
Sorry for your trouble, I'm glad you tell your loved ones you love them.
DBD

 

[Robbyna]

Thanks for your help.
I think if I don't leave a note it may look like an accident as I'm not currently sharing my feelings with anyone except here.
That is a good idea about poems and music and there are many things that spring to mind that would go some way to helping me.
Sorry for your trouble, I'm glad you tell your loved ones you love them.
DBD

Your comment made me think about why I won't write a note. It was helpful and cathartic for me to consider my reasoning. I'm glad my suggestions were even a little useful. No trouble at all!!

 

[Mybattle]

I just wrote mine, it is for me impossible to explain myself and try to take away the pain from my loved ones but I did the best I could.

It is terrible for me because I have people who love me.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Have you read your note back since writing? How did you feel?

 

[Johnnythefox]

Here is a link to a guide on how to write your note.

Writing a suicide note

 

[Dead beat dad]

I have no idea how you convinced a female to have sex with you much less have a child with you given your username "Dead beat dad" and how much trouble you have doing something as basic as writing a suicide note. It's not rocket science.

Here you might find this helpful.
HOW TO WRITE A SUICIDE NOTE
archive.ashspace.org/ashbusstop.org/Note.html

You know maybe you're right and I've over analyzed this.
In real life I'm charming and a bit of a looker, getting women to have sex with me is not something I've struggled with.
If I had the aptitude for something like rocket science then maybe I would've done something more useful in life.
You know what they say about looks and smarts.
Thanks for the advice brother.
DBD