I keep chickening out. I bought 2 bottles of tylenol, each with 200 500mg pills each. I tried this once before and almost died but the thought of taking that many pills again makes my stomach sick and I'm afraid I'll throw it all up. I am trying to read other methods but all the abbreviations are confusing. I just want something quick and painless. Dying in my sleep sounds pretty nice. I just want to end the pain. No one loves me, I just don't see the point in going on. I'm nothing but a waste of space in this world.
Taylor
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- Dec 23, 2018
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Please, whatever you do, don't overdose on Tylenol, or any other over the counter medication. Acetaminophen overdose is a horribly slow and agonizing death, as you essentially watch your liver be destroyed for days, until you die of liver failure. Not a fun way to go. Look into either Nembutal ("N" as you've probably seen) or Fentanyl. Those are the most peaceful, quick and painless methods.
Where can I find that? How much do I need? I'm a 5'6" female about 160-170lbs.
Taylor
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- Dec 23, 2018
- 476
There are a lot of threads on here about getting "N from A" who is the most trusted seller (and the only one right now if I'm not mistaken). He runs a business in Mexico selling 6.3g bottles of veterinary Nembutal, in which case most healthy adults need two bottles, since the lethal dose is around 12-15g. The taste is horrible though so you'll commonly see the protocol is to take antiemetics beforehand, to minimize your chances of throwing it up. I'm sure they've already mentioned his contact email in other threads, from the PPeH (Peaceful Pill eHandbook).
The other option in Fentanyl, the highly potent and extremely lethal opioid painkiller that is 50x stronger than morphine. I read somewhere that the lethal dose of pure Fentanyl HCL powder is just 1/4 of a mg, and a typical baby aspirin is 82mg. That's how powerful it is. You can injest it (with antiemetics), inject it intravenously, or even aquire the pain patches and use it transdermally. The only way to get Fentanyl is through the darknet, and there's a lot of risk involved, because you could be charged and face time in prison for importing illegal drugs. You can easily bypass it though, if you do your research. (VPNs, bitcoin, being aware of love letter/controlled delivery stings) and it will more than likely pass through just fine. It's even better to find a seller within your own country, so it doesn't even have to go through customs.
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15dec
ember in the dark
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,550
Effective methods are either illegal or your survival instinct prevents you from ctb
15dec
ember in the dark
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,550
Like Taylor said ODing isn't the way to go. If you can't get N or anything else you could use an exit bag and an OD, I was going to use that method a couple of months ago but I couldn't figure out how many pills I needed to knock myself out, but it's worth looking into. If you're still willing to you could look into recovery as well, before deciding to ctb
Taylor
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- Dec 23, 2018
- 476
Haha because society selfishly bans the termination of life of those that are suffering, because you are a pawn in their system, and that would cost the government money. So because of that, the only option is to resort to violent methods with severe repercussions if you fail, i.e. jumping off a bridge, hanging, gunshot, and nobody wants to do that. So the only way for a peaceful death is to just put the work in, unfortunately.
Knowing we are seen as assets for the benefit of the state makes me want to ctb that much worse.
mattwitt
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- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
That's why America has open borders... They need as many of us "bottom feeders" as they like to call us as possible to take advantage of in all of their little cash flow systems they have created for their greedy selfish benefits.
Right and also for demographic replacement of whites because when they legalized abortion it hurt whites the most. We are more likely to avoid wanting to rely on welfare than other groups so white women are more likely to abort if there isn't a male partner who is able or willing to help out. I know there are many white women who are fine with single motherhood although a good percentage are not. So the plan is to gradually lower the white population and get us to become a tiny minority and we are already the smallest population of all ethnic groups. Sorry I'll probably avoid getting political on here in the future. I don't want to get in trouble or be banned. Hope this doesn't offend anybody. It's not meant to imply anything negative about people with origins from third world countries. I think they deserve decent lives as well and matter as much as any other ethnic group.
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SiArc
sassy and sarcastic-y
- Dec 10, 2018
- 230
What does talking about politics and demographics have to do with the original intent of this post, hm?
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
All you have to do is click on my name and then click on ignore and you will never ever see any comments I have ever made or ever will make on this site. : )
Lmao! I think you took it wrong, are u aware that most people are biologically wired to prefer our own race, and when you try to force diversity/multiculturalism all that happens is people become less trusting, less social cohesion in their communities. People tend to want to be around their own heritage and that's why many people will try to move to areas where you won't be a minority. This has nothing to do with hating other racial groups, you just want to share the same culture as where u came from. I don't understand why people think this is racism. The boomer comment was bad I'll admit. The boomer generation was just as clueless about what the globalist plans are as any other generation. Look up the kalergi plan, that explains the end goal of the political elite.
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Hopeless_soul
Soon
- Jan 3, 2019
- 502
I'm with you. I'm on ginger tea now. Hope it helps a bit.
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
Here's one of the site rules...
Behavior: Do not harass, bully, or insult other users. Respect everyone's opinion even if you disagree. Keep discussion related to your own CTB, any other illegal topics are not allowed.
There is enough internet fighting a judgment already. We're all on this site to feel comfortable and not to be judged for how we feel. Let's keep it that way.
RememberWhatUCameFor
dont cry for me im already dead
- Nov 20, 2018
- 590
there are 2 big groups here with basically total opposite beliefs i think
ironically both often suffer from loneliness and suicidal thoughts
anyways there is no point in discussion politics at all here..it will lead to nothing and people will just get pissed
besides i never understand people who care about politics anyway..especially when you are in the position in your life that you post here. there are really more important things in life
ironically both often suffer from loneliness and suicidal thoughts
anyways there is no point in discussion politics at all here..it will lead to nothing and people will just get pissed
besides i never understand people who care about politics anyway..especially when you are in the position in your life that you post here. there are really more important things in life
Lol no what you mean. Couldn't care less about brexit anymore. Never minded talking about it before I got depressed. Just doesn't seem important anymore
