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[Jai]

Already tried sodium azide didn't do what it said on the tin. Took 69 50mg tramodol with 24 3-325mg coupled with 6 patches of 325mcg of fentanyl some tramozone zoloft and a shit ton of alcohol and still woke up today like I went to bed early if anything I got 5 hours sleep which is Grand I guess as I'm an insomniac this was admittedly let's see what happens attempt but after 8 tries now I feel like it's not supposed to be anyone feel this way?

Thanks in advance guys be cool

 

[Redt2go]

Well now that you know your not supposed to die maybe you can find your purpose if you believe in that?

 

[Shewaitsforme]

Could literally have been the case that what you mixed actually conteracted each other in some way. Im not a chemist or clued up on drug interactions and also drug interactions with alcohol but maybe one drug stopped the effevts of another in sone way. Thats why ODs are so unpredictable

 

[Jai]

Could literally have been the case that what you mixed actually conteracted each other in some way. Im not a chemist or clued up on drug interactions and also drug interactions with alcohol but maybe one drug stopped the effevts of another in sone way. Thats why ODs are so unpredictable

Appreciate your feedback I'm no chemist either just all are narcotics and tanned a shit load of alcohol with it thought there maybe an off chance I passed out and maybe my lungs stooped but I knew in the back of my head it'll not work just a driunk spare of the moment thing

 

[Jai]

Well now that you know your not supposed to die maybe you can find your purpose if you believe in that?

That's debatable on the other hand I used to have guns but got ticked and ended up st the happy farm but I know if I had a gun I'd be gone mate can't see beyond my bleak future either mate but I take on board your kind words if I saw a purpose who knows

 

[Jai]

That's debatable on the other hand I used to have guns but got ticked and ended up st the happy farm but I know if I had a gun I'd be gone mate can't see beyond my bleak future either mate but I take on board your kind words if I saw a purpose who knows

Not tricked caught is what I meant

 

[Redt2go]

What makes it bleak? If you care to share

 

[TiredHorse]

after 8 tries now I feel like it's not supposed to be anyone feel this way?

Yep: five tries in about two months with eb/N2 and I flinched every time. There was some pretty intense woo-woo/omen stuff happening, too, but the upshot is that I'm not currently in a place to ctb. That doesn't mean life is any easier, it just means it isn't my time to kill myself --which is rather a drag, to be honest.

I wihs you strength and courage, @Jai. If you are anyplace like where I am, you'll want both.

 

[Jai]

Do you have an opiate habit? I am surprised 6 of those patches alone didn't do more since people accidentally die on a couple of them at times and I've seen suicides with 5-10 patches. Tolerance from previous use could neuter that effect though.

No habit mate I've a medical condition that needs pain management

What makes it bleak? If you care to share

was already depressed been for years had a foolproof plan set for November last year I was looking forward to then got gullianne barre syndrome out of nowhere so can't stand or walk use my hands properly

 

[Jai]

Yep: five tries in about two months with eb/N2 and I flinched every time. There was some pretty intense woo-woo/omen stuff happening, too, but the upshot is that I'm not currently in a place to ctb. That doesn't mean life is any easier, it just means it isn't my time to kill myself --which is rather a drag, to be honest.

I wihs you strength and courage, @Jai. If you are anyplace like where I am, you'll want both.

Feel for you mate I was independent till last October now can't move basically had a gun set up and a plan to ' disappear ' but because of this medical stuff it never happened if you don't mind can you expand on your omen thing ? It just so happens my family is Catholic I'm not but a lot of religious things are going on with them and none are aware of my plans

 

[Jai]

Yep: five tries in about two months with eb/N2 and I flinched every time. There was some pretty intense woo-woo/omen stuff happening, too, but the upshot is that I'm not currently in a place to ctb. That doesn't mean life is any easier, it just means it isn't my time to kill myself --which is rather a drag, to be honest.

I wihs you strength and courage, @Jai. If you are anyplace like where I am, you'll want both.

I wish you luck mate as well and Godspeed thanks for your post

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Already tried sodium azide didn't do what it said on the tin. Took 69 50mg tramodol with 24 3-325mg coupled with 6 patches of 325mcg of fentanyl some tramozone zoloft and a shit ton of alcohol and still woke up today like I went to bed early if anything I got 5 hours sleep which is Grand I guess as I'm an insomniac this was admittedly let's see what happens attempt but after 8 tries now I feel like it's not supposed to be anyone feel this way?

Thanks in advance guys be cool

Sorry Jai, but if the azide actually came in a metal container I strongly suspect that it was fake. Azide tends to explode when it comes into contact with a number of metals, and the transdermal fentanyl patch, unless things have dramatically changed recently, is not made in 325 micrograms. Could these two items have been fake?
https://www.drugs.com/search.php?searchterm=Fentanyl+Transdermal+System&a=1


RAN-Fentanyl Matrix Patch
Brand Name
RAN-Fentanyl Matrix Patch
Common Name
fentanyl transdermal patch
In this drug factsheet:

• How does this medication work? What will it do for me?
• How should I use this medication?
• What form(s) does this medication come in?
• Who should NOT take this medication?
• What side effects are possible with this medication?
• Are there any other precautions or warnings for this medication?
• What other drugs could interact with this medication?

DIN (Drug Identification Number)
02330105 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 12µG/HR
02330113 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 25µG/HR
02330121 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 50µG/HR
02330148 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 75µG/HR
02330156 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 100µG/HR

Already tried sodium azide diditth n't do what it said on the tin. Took 69 50mg tramodol with 24 3-325mg coupled with 6 patches of 325mcg of fentanyl some tramozone zoloft and a shit ton of alcohol and still woke up today like I went to bed early if anything I got 5 hours sleep which is Grand I guess as I'm an insomniac this was admittedly let's see what happens attempt but after 8 tries now I feel like it's not supposed to be anyone feel this way?

Thanks in advance guys be cool

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Already tried sodium azide didn't do what it said on the tin. Took 69 50mg tramodol with 24 3-325mg coupled with 6 patches of 325mcg of fentanyl some tramozone zoloft and a shit ton of alcohol and still woke up today like I went to bed early if anything I got 5 hours sleep which is Grand I guess as I'm an insomniac this was admittedly let's see what happens attempt but after 8 tries now I feel like it's not supposed to be anyone feel this way?

Thanks in advance guys be cool

Hi Jai. This is very short...mouse playing games...azide generally does not come in a metal container. Very volatile when it meets metals. Fentanyl patches, unless just recently changed is not supplied in 325 mcg. I have to wonder if these two were actually fake? I am sorry Jai.


RAN-Fentanyl Matrix Patch
Brand Name
RAN-Fentanyl Matrix Patch
Common Name
fentanyl transdermal patch
In this drug factsheet:

• How does this medication work? What will it do for me?
• How should I use this medication?
• What form(s) does this medication come in?
• Who should NOT take this medication?
• What side effects are possible with this medication?
• Are there any other precautions or warnings for this medication?
• What other drugs could interact with this medication?

DIN (Drug Identification Number)
02330105 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 12µG/HR
02330113 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 25µG/HR
02330121 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 50µG/HR
02330148 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 75µG/HR
02330156 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 100µG/HR

https://www.drugs.com/dosage/fentanyl.html

 

[Retched]

Already tried sodium azide didn't do what it said on the tin. Took 69 50mg tramodol with 24 3-325mg coupled with 6 patches of 325mcg of fentanyl some tramozone zoloft and a shit ton of alcohol and still woke up today like I went to bed early if anything I got 5 hours sleep which is Grand I guess as I'm an insomniac this was admittedly let's see what happens attempt but after 8 tries now I feel like it's not supposed to be anyone feel this way?

Thanks in advance guys be cool

I'm so sorry. That's a lot to deal with!

 

[Jai]

Sorry wasn't meant derisively or accusing you of abuse...I meant it as in do you take them regularly and have tolerance built up. I was surprised to see so many patches do nothing but mild sleep in anyone except someone with a large opiate tolerance since people have died on 1 or 2 of them.

No habit

Hi Jai. This is very short...mouse playing games...azide generally does not come in a metal container. Very volatile when it meets metals. Fentanyl patches, unless just recently changed is not supplied in 325 mcg. I have to wonder if these two were actually fake? I am sorry Jai.


RAN-Fentanyl Matrix Patch
Brand Name
RAN-Fentanyl Matrix Patch
Common Name
fentanyl transdermal patch
In this drug factsheet:

• How does this medication work? What will it do for me?
• How should I use this medication?
• What form(s) does this medication come in?
• Who should NOT take this medication?
• What side effects are possible with this medication?
• Are there any other precautions or warnings for this medication?
• What other drugs could interact with this medication?

DIN (Drug Identification Number)
02330105 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 12µG/HR
02330113 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 25µG/HR
02330121 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 50µG/HR
02330148 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 75µG/HR
02330156 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 100µG/HR

https://www.drugs.com/dosage/fentanyl.html

defenatly not fake my friend maybe I got the dose wrong but I'd just picked up my refill prescription from the doctor about 9 days ago all genuine and as for the azide comment it's an old British term ' does exactly what it says on the tin ' so I drank a bottle of vodka last night got piss drunk mate ' yeah no doubt does what it says on the tin ' I'm aware it's plastic still have the stuff

 

[Jai]

Sorry wasn't meant derisively or accusing you of abuse...I meant it as in do you take them regularly and have tolerance built up. I was surprised to see so many patches do nothing but mild sleep in anyone except someone with a large opiate tolerance since people have died on 1 or 2 of them.

Possibly started Percocet last October was on that for nearly 4 months had some stashed but that's when they changed my prescription to tramadol so maybe some tolerance

 

[Jai]

No habit

defenatly not fake my friend maybe I got the dose wrong but I'd just picked up my refill prescription from the doctor about 9 days ago all genuine and as for the azide comment it's an old British term ' does exactly what it says on the tin ' so I drank a bottle of vodka last night got piss drunk mate ' yeah no doubt does what it says on the tin ' I'm aware it's plastic still have the stuff

I'll check the dose next time i look for you

 

[Jai]

What makes it bleak? If you care to share

Can't move walk or stand at the moment and totally reliable on other people which there are few stuck in a bed or a wheelchair for now and can't navigate the roads on my own most of the roads here are on hills not many flat was suicidal for a long time before this now I'm more determined but in a bit of a pickle

 

[Jai]

Hi Jai. This is very short...mouse playing games...azide generally does not come in a metal container. Very volatile when it meets metals. Fentanyl patches, unless just recently changed is not supplied in 325 mcg. I have to wonder if these two were actually fake? I am sorry Jai.


RAN-Fentanyl Matrix Patch
Brand Name
RAN-Fentanyl Matrix Patch
Common Name
fentanyl transdermal patch
In this drug factsheet:

• How does this medication work? What will it do for me?
• How should I use this medication?
• What form(s) does this medication come in?
• Who should NOT take this medication?
• What side effects are possible with this medication?
• Are there any other precautions or warnings for this medication?
• What other drugs could interact with this medication?

DIN (Drug Identification Number)
02330105 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 12µG/HR
02330113 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 25µG/HR
02330121 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 50µG/HR
02330148 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 75µG/HR
02330156 RAN-FENTANYL MATRIX PATCH 100µG/HR

https://www.drugs.com/dosage/fentanyl.html

I didn't mean to put a 3 in front

Duragesic ( fentanyl) 25mcg/hr patch

 

[TheCrow]

Possibly started Percocet last October was on that for nearly 4 months had some stashed but that's when they changed my prescription to tramadol so maybe some tolerance

Tramadol is such BS, isn't it?! It's like, Opiod Lite.

 

[Jai]

Tramadol is such BS, isn't it?! It's like, Opiod Lite.

Complete waste of money mate doesn't do much in all fairness neither do the patches. But the doctor adement o stay on them for now only thing that seems to work is booze

 

[Stillnotsure]

From the information you've provided, you have built up such a high tolerance to fentanyl that it would actually make you sicker to try to stop using it abruptly than to try to OD on it.

As to the other medications and alcohol you coupled with it: it'll just make you sleepy. It is virtually impossible to overdose on prescription drugs because it takes such high doses to accomplish it. No doubt you have a tolerance to those too, making the dose you need to OD significantly higher than someone who hasn't tried them before.

Seeing you've "tried 8 times before" means i am 100 percent sure the issue is one of tolerance.

Any method you try must not involve prescription pills or narcotics. It just won't work.

As to the Sodium Aizide: you say you didn't follow the instructions on how that method works. There still may be a way for that to work.

Any method you choose should be reachered by you and only be on the list of proven methods. Research it and follow the method to the letter.

Best of luck in your journey.

 

[Jai]

From the information you've provided, you have built up such a high tolerance to fentanyl that it would actually make you sicker to try to stop using it abruptly than to try to OD on it.

As to the other medications and alcohol you coupled with it: it'll just make you sleepy. It is virtually impossible to overdose on prescription drugs because it takes such high doses to accomplish it. No doubt you have a tolerance to those too, making the dose you need to OD significantly higher than someone who hasn't tried them before.

Seeing you've "tried 8 times before" means i am 100 percent sure the issue is one of tolerance.

Any method you try must not involve prescription pills or narcotics. It just won't work.

As to the Sodium Aizide: you say you didn't follow the instructions on how that method works. There still may be a way for that to work.

Any method you choose should be reachered by you and only be on the list of proven methods. Research it and follow the method to the letter.

Best of luck in your journey.

Thanks for the reply the recent OD was a drunken chance tge sodium azide I'm not trying again I thought it would work but just caused myself physical severe pain and praying I was dead I thought I'd took the 3 g needed but I was so drunk prior I can't say for sure

 

[Stillnotsure]

Thanks for the reply the recent OD was a drunken chance tge sodium azide I'm not trying again I thought it would work but just caused myself physical severe pain and praying I was dead I thought I'd took the 3 g needed but I was so drunk prior I can't say for sure

I'm sorry you went through that.

Taking N Sn or SA or any of those on this site without following the protocol is risky. I can't imagine how horribly sick you felt! Very sorry!

 

[Redt2go]

Can't move walk or stand at the moment and totally reliable on other people which there are few stuck in a bed or a wheelchair for now and can't navigate the roads on my own most of the roads here are on hills not many flat was suicidal for a long time before this now I'm more determined but in a bit of a pickle

Woah, Im sorry :(

 

[Arak]

Any tolerance/dependence caused by taking an opiate somewhat frequently, makes a lethal overdose close to impossible. Maybe not completely, but at best you'd need a much bigger dose. I think the tramadol didn't help anyway. No idea what the zoloft did, it's nto a CNS depressant. Alcohol plus opiates have a synergetic effect, but I suspect it's not that great.

Without any tolerance, a regime started with meto, followed by a high dose of a very powerful opiate and a very high dose of lorazepam, with another CNS depressants in the mix (like alcohol, but not too much since you don't want to mess it up) woudl giev you a good chance of dying. Failure and organ damage is always an option, of course.

Taking sodium azide when drunk was likely a bad idea: not only does the alcohol not have any analgesic properties, possibly you took less than 3 gr or there was an unforeseen interaction.

 

[TheCrow]

Also, are you out of all your meds now since you used so many in that attempt?

Complete waste of money mate doesn't do much in all fairness neither do the patches. But the doctor adement o stay on them for now only thing that seems to work is booze

Wow, I was just going to say what I can see everyone else is saying: if those patches don't work, then your tolerance is high af! Oh man. Yeah, going that route isn't going to work. :(

 

[Jai]

Also, are you out of all your meds now since you used so many in that attempt?

Wow, I was just going to say what I can see everyone else is saying: if those patches don't work, then your tolerance is high af! Oh man. Yeah, going that route isn't going to work. :(

Yeah I'm out of what I had till my next doctors appointment/review yeah started Percocet in October started the fentanyl patches in November they just have been giving me less every visit totally off the Percocet in lieu of tramadol mate

 

[Jai]

Any tolerance/dependence caused by taking an opiate somewhat frequently, makes a lethal overdose close to impossible. Maybe not completely, but at best you'd need a much bigger dose. I think the tramadol didn't help anyway. No idea what the zoloft did, it's nto a CNS depressant. Alcohol plus opiates have a synergetic effect, but I suspect it's not that great.

Without any tolerance, a regime started with meto, followed by a high dose of a very powerful opiate and a very high dose of lorazepam, with another CNS depressants in the mix (like alcohol, but not too much since you don't want to mess it up) woudl giev you a good chance of dying. Failure and organ damage is always an option, of course.

Taking sodium azide when drunk was likely a bad idea: not only does the alcohol not have any analgesic properties, possibly you took less than 3 gr or there was an unforeseen interaction.

Zoloft was for stress I've not slept properly in about a year it was just there so that's why that got took

 

[Jai]

Appreciate all the feed back from everyone thanks