thinkkank
Experienced
- Oct 16, 2019
- 247
I want to practice not letting people's anger and bullshit get to me. I interact with toxic people every week and I want to try and just let what they say bounce off me. I don't want their anger to stick to me and carry it throughout the day. After I meet them I tend to replay that negative interaction in my mind which causes an immense amount of stress, to the point where I can feel acid building up inside me. When I think about meeting them again in a few hours or days this also causes me to feel sick. Even when they aren't around me they still hurt me, or maybe I hurt myself by replaying the memory or thinking about our upcoming interaction. I don't want to give these memories or thoughts about the future power over me. I don't have much time left, and I don't want to spend this finite amount of time letting other people get me upset, or letting memories get me upset. I don't want people to have the power to ruin my day. I want to enjoy my finite time here regardless of their bullshit. I can't escape them, I wish I could, but the next best thing is to guard my mind against their bullshit