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Experienced
- Jun 19, 2023
- 295
My last hope of finding SN flew away with learning my sources don't deliver to Switzerland.
I guess I will have to go with hanging or jumping.
But I am so so so scared. I can't seem to make myself at peace with the idea of dying. I NEED to go but it appears I just can't. I'm stuck and I'm scared as fuck.
I tried hanging several times for years, I never mamaged to go all the way, even when completely desesperate. Too anxious. This is so f.cking ironic. Too anxious to live, too anxious to die.
I don't know what to do, this is so painful. I am lost and desperate.
Sorry for the vent.
I guess I will have to go with hanging or jumping.
But I am so so so scared. I can't seem to make myself at peace with the idea of dying. I NEED to go but it appears I just can't. I'm stuck and I'm scared as fuck.
I tried hanging several times for years, I never mamaged to go all the way, even when completely desesperate. Too anxious. This is so f.cking ironic. Too anxious to live, too anxious to die.
I don't know what to do, this is so painful. I am lost and desperate.
Sorry for the vent.