Reflection
Lost
- Sep 12, 2024
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Although I realize that if I ever CTB it wouldn't matter what anybody thinks, I can't help but feel I want to be sympathized with, loved and cared for even though I won't be here to care or give a damn. But given the stigma around suicide, I am sure that the one thing that will happen is that I'll be called all kinds of negative things after the fact, perhaps even by family and people I love and care about, especially in a religious environment, which does break my heart further... I've already seen proof of it this week from someone I held dearly to my heart...Once I die it'll be just like a fly got swatted and their life goes on without a care, sucks I guess but still better than having to live a long painful life.
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