dysfunctional

dysfunctional

Arcanist
Oct 26, 2018
459
Its crazy observing normal, happy people. I remember the satisfaction and enthusiasm of day to day life. Nothing against them at all! It just makes me miss feeling that way. I felt more satisfaction doing 1 load of laundry back when I wasn't fucked in the head as I have all experiences in the last 10 months combined.
 
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noonetoo

noonetoo

Specialist
Mar 7, 2019
386
It is indeed. Seeing people enjoy their families. Having friends. Being popular. Thinking wow, I wish at one point in my life I could be like that. So much to envy. Even on here, & in other chats. There's always those people that get all the spotlight. Idk about the laundry though. Hate doing mine. Well, having to do it at a laundromat. Attached to the same one I've been going to since middle school.
 
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CFLoser

CFLoser

I fcking hate myself
Dec 5, 2018
611
i think its normal to feel suicidal and sad tho... i think the majority of people feel this way. right?
 
Pulpit2018

Pulpit2018

Experienced
Oct 8, 2018
287
I dont have a definition of whats normal.I never cared what that meant.
You be yourself.
 
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dysfunctional

dysfunctional

Arcanist
Oct 26, 2018
459
I'd definitely agree with you. In this case i guess i'm refering to mental illness. Always did my own thing and was really happy with it. Then mental illness crippled me and took everything I valued. So I guess by normal I mean not severly mentally ill.
 
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Onomotopoeia

Experienced
Feb 8, 2019
264
I have always been a bit envious of the ability some people have to experience joy. Hell, its not even just people I am endlessly impressed with my dog's ability to just be happy. Mental illness is crippling and lonely. If you can help it at all just dont let it isolate you. Being lonely in a crowded room is awful in itself, but true isolation is the thing that even lonely fears.
 
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Taylor

Taylor

Thankful
Dec 23, 2018
476
Its crazy observing normal, happy people. I remember the satisfaction and enthusiasm of day to day life. Nothing against them at all! It just makes me miss feeling that way. I felt more satisfaction doing 1 load of laundry back when I wasn't fucked in the head as I have all experiences in the last 10 months combined.
I feel the exact same way and know exactly where you're coming from. I feel so completely alienated and like I'm not "normal" anymore, and don't belong here anymore from my head fucking as well lol. That's why I no longer talk to people or my friends and rarely leave the house even. This first started back in 2015 for me, and just compounded into an even deeper abyss from there.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
Imagine feeling that way around (other) depressed/suicidal people. The only thing I can get along with now is plastic.
I feel the exact same way and know exactly where you're coming from. I feel so completely alienated and like I'm not "normal" anymore, and don't belong here anymore from my head fucking as well lol. That's why I no longer talk to people or my friends and rarely leave the house even. This first started back in 2015 for me, and just compounded into an even deeper abyss from there.

Wait, you too? ... ...

What do you mean by "and don't belong here anymore"? Want to make sure I'm not misinterpreting you.
 
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