Discussion Nope not like that! How would you not CTB.

[bigoutfit]

What would you consider the one (or maybe more than one) method to CTB that you could never do?

For me it would be CTB by train. Apart from the terrible effect on the driver and anybody else I just could never overcome my SI waiting for the train coming towards me, I would be scared witless.

Sorry if this has been posted before, I couldn't find anything but my WIFI is being dead slow this evening.

 

[mediocre]

jumping because I'm afraid of heights.
hanging because I don't want to choke to death.
slit wrists because I don't want to bleed to death.
the list is quite long.

 

[k75]

Anything involving guns, jumping, fire, and trains. Never, ever, ever.

 

[R_N]

Any method that is slow and painful.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Fire, I saw a liveleak of a guy setting himself on fire. Was around 12 minutes long and he was still stood upright after about 3 or 4 minutes, still moving until about 8 or 9 minutes when he just stopped crawling along the floor. Nope. No. Never. Not for me.

 

[bigoutfit]

Yeah fire would be bad. There was a monk in Vietnam who set himself on fire and just sat there until he died.

Wikipedia page

In June of 1963, Vietnamese Mahayana Buddhist monk Thích Quang Duc burned himself to death at a busy intersection in Saigon. ... The self-immolation was done in protest to the South Vietnamese Diem regime's pro-catholic policies and discriminatory Buddhist laws.

 

[voyager]

Yeah, burning alive is a bit too much for my tastes. Drinking antifreeze and bleach are not my cup of tea either. But I think more than those, and this isn't even an official ctb method but it's so risky that it could be, is spelunking. That's caving in really tight quarters and basically getting buried alive if they can't get you out. That's providing anyone even knows you're down there, of course.

Spoiler: lovely

 

[Carina]

The list is so long of what I wouldn't use it's easier to mention only the methods I would use: pills (that I know would do it)/poisons (that would be painless)

Really, I wouldn't use any other method. I tried with many other methods in the past (pre-internet searching... ok I was even on an alt. can't remember that was a suicide-like newsgroup once, but didn't read much), but most were painful , or were on the absolute nope list (jumping/trains/fire/drowning).

 

[JustAnotherSuicider]

Jumping - it's hard to overcome SI and there is no guarantee that you will die, you can become a vegetable in worst scenario. Not mentioning that you have to find high enough place and make sure that no one will stop you.

Set myself on fire - well, I think that's obvious and don't have to be explained.

Cutting veins - it would be hard for me to overcome SI and make o good cut with razor. There is also I high chance of failure, and even if you do everything right it will still take a long time to bleed out and it would be painful. In worst scenario you will call for emergency and they will safe you and your hand will go numb.

Anything chemical - any drugs overdose, SN or any other way of poisoning, it's just not for me, and again there is high chance that you will end in emergency room and become vegetable, or you will just vomit everything.

Guns - because there is no way I can get one :(

Train - well, beside of SI, I don't really make someone's life harder because of me, this way of killing yourself is really messy and can cause trauma for people that will find you, and it would be harder for family. Also that would cause a delay, and no one likes delays, including me.

Drowning - oh man, that must be slow and painful.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Train, jumping, wrist cutting and self-immolation. I'd have to be really, really, REALLY desperate for either of those (especially the lattermost.)

 

[1DayItWillBover]

jumping, train, anything really gruesome pretty much

 

[134340]

Anything that directly involves another person, like jumping in front of a train or car, no guns or fire, and I don't think I could jump from anywhere either unless I just somehow did it without trying to think about it too much. Or if I got desperate enough.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

Train - for all of the reasons people have listed above. I also have a friend that ctb that way. It was a huge mystery because no one knew if it was a suicide or not since he was a train hopper.

Slitting my wrists - I'm a cutter and I often want to/get the impulse to do it, but I just can't bring myself to do so.

Fire - NOPENOPENOPE

Drowning - Also nope-ing out of that one, at least until I can get over that pesky fear of drowning I have. Then again, since I can't swim it might be easy. /shrug

Or really anything that involves someone else.

 

[FracturedSeraphim]

I won't leave a huge mess for others to clean up, so no slit wrists, no burning, no gun... Stuff like that.

 

[Heart of Ice]

Anything involving injections, so heroin, morphine etc.

 

[Lotus]

I was lurking in the thread about suicide videoes. I watched a couple (ok, many) of them because I wanted to face reality, and I was quite frankly curious, but after I watched them I just feel disgust. Not by the act itself, but the outcome. I remember the time I seriously thought about hanging and jumping (both from height and in front of a train) as methods. Now I've completely put off any method that causes such a traumatic outcome. I want to spare my family for that, I don't want to involve someone else, and I also don't want to make a public scene about it.

I'm afraid that I'm romanticizing CTB (SN method), but at the same time I haven't seen any suicide videoes of the so called "peaceful" methods. I think I just need to get the videoes I've seen out of my system.

 

[CyanideSoup]

Probably train is the biggest one. I could never do it plus the poor driver :( and guns and drowning are a huge no too

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Drowning, self imolation, jumping are so scary to me! I guess train woud be also impossibe.

 

[ARW3N]

Got to be self-immolation, i.e. setting oneself on fire.

 

[thelastchicken]

I think I would never resort to suicide by fire regardless of the level of desperation. I see myself preferring to submit to whatever is happening to me and welcome detachment and delusions and let myself be somebody's tool.

With any other method that scares me to the extreme (jumping, train, decapitation, suffocation with solid matter) there is still a possibility that I would become ready for it, if suffering long and excruciatingly enough, like for example if I were in extreme physical chronic pain combined with the despair of knowing it will never subside. Then these methods would maybe seem to me loving and soft, simply because of the fact that they have an ending. Come to think of it, maybe even fire would look different to me then, but fire is definitely on a special platform of terror for me.

 

[mathieu]

I could never jump. I'm afraid of heights.

 

[charlottewilts]

setting myself on fire is the only hard no i have.

 

[BipolarExpat]

Yeah fire would be bad. There was a monk in Vietnam who set himself on fire and just sat there until he died.

Wikipedia page

In June of 1963, Vietnamese Mahayana Buddhist monk Thích Quang Duc burned himself to death at a busy intersection in Saigon. ... The self-immolation was done in protest to the South Vietnamese Diem regime's pro-catholic policies and discriminatory Buddhist laws.

And RATM bought the img rights to it.

 

[Nemeshisu]

A lot of methods including:

1) Any methods that could harm others or cause them severe trauma: So no, jumping under trains, cars or jumping from roof in any public place. I am concerned about the feelings of others even during moments of my death. I wouldn't mind jumping from Radio Mast in middle of nowhere but these are hard to find.

2) Any methods that causes a lot of harm to body from outside (Any method I cosider too violent): So no stabbing myself, cutting my wrists or setting myself on fire. I don't mind these methods too much but I know I wouldn't be able to overcome my SI.

3) I wouldn't use any acid to burn my insides. It's just too painful. A BIG NO!

4) Hanging, because I don't like feeling of being out of breath. Strangely enought I wouldn't mind drowning though, but I would only use it out of desperation if no other method is possible.

5) Any method that is too slow like starving myself to death or death by hypothermia I would also only use when I would be really desperate.

 

[LMLN]

Anything violent i cannot do. I think I can swallow something though. So I'm planning SN.

 

[PwincessStepford]

Fire or water. Fire has been explained by others on this thread, and I've also read that it's extremely agonizing. My reason for not wanting to drown, however, is not only that it's also incredibly agonizing, but also because of my relationship to water.

I did competitive swimming and water polo in high school, and I've also worked as a lifeguard and swim instructor. My dad was also a swimmer/polo player in HS, and he was also a surfer who grew up in San Diego. Because of this, I grew up regularly swimming in the beaches of SoCal. I am 100% certain that if I was dropped off in the middle of an ocean, the only ways I would be too exhausted to keep myself afloat would have to be due to some exterior factors such as sleep deprivation or dehydration. For me, walking takes more effort than treading water does.

Not only that, but I always loved water as a kid, so I don't think I can do that to the child in me.

 

[Ame]

Echoing @Nemeshisu for their list of criteria for CTB methods that I would rather avoid, in particular:

1. Any method that would cause harm to or traumatize others. For example, that « detergent suicide » method (where you essentially home brew H2S using household items) that used to circulate old Japanese suicide BBSes would definitely be a no go.

2. Any method that would indirectly involve others in order to bring about my death (ex: jumping in front of an incoming métro or véhicule)...aka: no literally catching the bus head on ha ha.

3. Any method that would inconvenience the public or draw on more resources than absolutely necessary. I will not CTB in a public area nor do I intend to waste emergency resources (ex: police) by vanishing and having others work to recover my body. Further I refuse to cause public transportation service interruptions by hopping onto tracks to CTB.

While this next point isn't a method, I don't feel comfortable with suicide pacts or partners. As nice as it would be to have someone physically present as I die - and to provide the same comfort to a partner - there is just so much that could go wrong. I would hate to indirectly pressure someone into doing something that they are not really ready to do. I would not want to leave anyone in an awkward legal situation if they came away from the attempt alive either.

 

[Vertigo]

in addition to obvious ones, for me it's hanging
I can't even stand touching my neck let alone brake it, i'm very icky

 

[Shinbu]

Lighting myself up in fire, and slitting my throat. I remember a guy who was a car salesman that did that. It was on liveleak, and he was holding on to the area of his wound to try to stop his suffering. I thought of slitting my throat in the past, but I don't anymore.

 

[faraway_beach]

Resumé

By Dorothy Parker

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.


Edit: (I don't know if Parker tried any of these and survived, I hear she had a pretty horrible life.)