MBiopic
Dreamer
- Apr 10, 2023
- 52
i know that this world is not real. i just know it. it's all a fake. the people and everything around me is fake. death is the only way i can escape, the only way i can go to the world of my dreams where i am in control and not suffering. this is all a ploy, a big hallucination, it just feels like it. i can feel it sometimes. more often than not i am just trapped in my own feelings, experiencing the loop over and over, succumbing to the physical and mental pain. but sometimes, just sometimes, i realize that this is not real and that i have a choice. i can escape this.
i don't have enough willpower to kill myself just yet and the method, but i stopped on the night-night method. i will escape from here. we will all be free someday. i am going shopping tomorrow!! i'll be looking for a ratchet strap and something to press on my carotids. anyways, it'll all be over soon. it'll be fine. i just have to wait for the right moment and use it. i love you all, whatever we all are - real or not. <3
i don't have enough willpower to kill myself just yet and the method, but i stopped on the night-night method. i will escape from here. we will all be free someday. i am going shopping tomorrow!! i'll be looking for a ratchet strap and something to press on my carotids. anyways, it'll all be over soon. it'll be fine. i just have to wait for the right moment and use it. i love you all, whatever we all are - real or not. <3