Non ctb chat

[truthseeker]

Even now it's hard for me to reach out, I'm just so used to going through life alone. Trying to handle whatever comes my way solo. Not that I've had a choice but as my health has deteriorated to a point where quality of life is no longer even remotely satisfactory, I won't to make a few final efforts at discussing lighter topics than ctb. I had interests that meant something to me that have been pushed to the back of the 'fridge by failing health, depression and the desire to leave a world that I've never felt a part of or understand. Maybe between a rock and a hard place at this point.
I used to be a cinephile, a film fan. It was close to being a passion but I'm not sure what that even is really. Most all things related to movies interested me. I feel like I've seen a few thousand or more in my lifetime. I mention it because it was one way that I could feel somewhat connected to the world at large. Or as close as I wished to get. Now, I'm just numb. I seem to have lost that edge.

Long story shortened, I would like to msg./chat/PM with those that can relate to anything I've said. Even if not. I would think some people here might feel similar so I'm putting it out there, even if I feel naked and vulnerable. I fear being judged or rejected. I just feel the need to try before it's too late. Well, I'm just rambling now..

 

[azucaramargo]

Even now it's hard for me to reach out, I'm just so used to going through life alone. Trying to handle whatever comes my way solo. Not that I've had a choice but as my health has deteriorated to a point where quality of life is no longer even remotely satisfactory, I won't to make a few final efforts at discussing lighter topics than ctb. I had interests that meant something to me that have been pushed to the back of the 'fridge by failing health, depression and the desire to leave a world that I've never felt a part of or understand. Maybe between a rock and a hard place at this point.
I used to be a cinephile, a film fan. It was close to being a passion but I'm not sure what that even is really. Most all things related to movies interested me. I feel like I've seen a few thousand or more in my lifetime. I mention it because it was one way that I could feel somewhat connected to the world at large. Or as close as I wished to get. Now, I'm just numb. I seem to have lost that edge.

Long story shortened, I would like to msg./chat/PM with those that can relate to anything I've said. Even if not. I would think some people here might feel similar so I'm putting it out there, even if I feel naked and vulnerable. I fear being judged or rejected. I just feel the need to try before it's too late. Well, I'm just rambling now..

Very poignant post. Thank you. I like movies, too, and I will be PM'ing you now.

 

[SoupSnakes]

My film knowledge is embarrassingly poor but always up for a chat if you want one

 

[howard]

Hi, I relate to what you say. Films were my passion in the past. I even did A level film studies many years ago
All I have anymore is a lap top and anything I can get online, even still nothing has any meaning any more
I would love to chat a bit if you want.
I am planning my exit soon with SN so it probably wouldn't be for very long.
PM if you like
Howard

 

[Lethe]

What are some of your favorite movies, OP?

 

[SinisterKid]

Distraction, my only friend, best distractions? Film and reading and being here. Chat is always open here.