For me non-existence is all that's positive, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, terrible and deeply undesirable existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, in this existence so evil that just causes all this endless pain and suffering non-existence is just all that can bring me peace, to suffer in this existence is a terrible punishment, all I want is to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all.
I'll always see existence as an abomination and it's one that has done nothing but torture existing beings, for me wanting death is a response to being burdened with this existence that just causes all this dreadful, unnecessary suffering and I'll always prefer to not exist no matter what than be tortured in this futile, cruel and dreadful existence and every second is torture to be conscious, existence truly is the problem and it truly is the most terrible horrific tragedy how humans impose this torturous burden onto others. To exist means to suffer and I see it as so terrible to suffer so unnecessarily just to face the extreme pain and agony of old age, it's horrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long and to be permanently safe and at peace from all harm and suffering is all I want, existence is a mistake, all that's beautiful to me is the peace of non-existence where I cannot suffer eve again.
