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[Caribbean Sky]

I don't understand why no one is answering the questions I've been putting up there. I'm not asking something absurd, right? I think they're pretty basic questions. (though I have used the search bar to no avail)
Long, long ago in a galaxy far far away, on this forum I was rude and had an attitude, towards people I've seen still use this forum.
I was only rude because I was desperate. Though I shouldn't have been of course, and I really regret it.

now I feel like that behavior is what's causing people not to "comment".
Am I really doomed to figuring out a lot of this stuff on my own because of past behavior? I hope not.
if I thought this was info I could research on my own, I absolutely would. but I don't know anywhere else you can ask about suicide without getting clapped in chains. (That's why fighting Ofcom is so important)

I'm dead set on suicide for awhile now, that's not what this is about. That's why it feels so dramatic...

 

[Pale_Rider]

I can remember being a real jerk when I was desperate. The anger slips through. but you get better with time maybe?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I skimmed the threads. Maybe people don't know and have no accurate answers (specifically about opioids)? Regarding SN sources and considering what's going on specifically in the UK people are probably very cautious and don't share their sources easily.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

I can remember being a real jerk when I was desperate. The anger slips through. but you get better with time maybe?

I did get better. But no one else is giving me a second chance. The user population of this forum has doomed me to figuring out information I couldn't possibly figure out on my own, and attempting to "operate" without that information may injure me. Sounds dramatic? It's true. People holding grudges could cause physical damage.

I skimmed the threads. Maybe people don't know and have no accurate answers (specifically about opioids)? Regarding SN sources and considering what's going on specifically in the UK people are probably very cautious and don't share their sources easily.

About SN? I'm in the US and I've seen other people get answers, my replies on other threads have gotten answers. It's like I stink or something.

About opioids..I guess so. But surely there are other toxicologist/researchers other than Rhizo, right? Really hope my method and possible results do not hinge on his return. that would suck. I feel like I'm the only one who has that problems even with opioids being my method.

I did get better. But no one else is giving me a second chance. The user population of this forum has doomed me to figuring out information I couldn't possibly figure out on my own, and attempting to "operate" without that information may injure me. Sounds dramatic? It's true. People holding grudges could cause physical damage.

About SN? I'm in the US and I've seen other people get answers, my replies on other threads have gotten answers. It's like I stink or something.

About opioids..I guess so. But surely there are other toxicologist/researchers other than Rhizo, right? Really hope my method and possible results do not hinge on his return. that would suck. I feel like I'm the only one who has that problems even with opioids being my method.

Sorry. meant to say I see other people get answers about SN. And that even my replies on other threads about it, get answers.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I did get better. But no one else is giving me a second chance. The user population of this forum has doomed me to figuring out information I couldn't possibly figure out on my own, and attempting to "operate" without that information may injure me. Sounds dramatic? It's true. People holding grudges could cause physical damage.

About SN? I'm in the US and I've seen other people get answers, my replies on other threads have gotten answers. It's like I stink or something.

About opioids..I guess so. But surely there are other toxicologist/researchers other than Rhizo, right? Really hope my method and possible results do not hinge on his return. that would suck. I feel like I'm the only one who has that problems even with opioids being my method.

Sorry. meant to say I see other people get answers about SN. And that even my replies on other threads about it, get answers.

I feel you pain. Im not sure what to say, other then I love you as human. There is a lot of information here. Ill answer questions if I can for you.

 

[bankai]

I remember you OP.You called me chubby once. I'll never let that slide.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Looking back at your postings that received zero replies, I can tell you, unequivocally, that I didn't reply to any of them because I don't know the answers to any of the questions you put forth, nor have any sound advice to offer. That, and I once saw you whacking your pud and spritzing all over my azaleas, which just made me mad.

 

[bankai]

Opie, don't be mad. I too have made threads which I feel haven't got adequate responses. These threads still exists on tabs that I keep refreshing every 10 seconds till this day.I say keep at it. You will eventually get a response. Please be grateful when that happens.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

Opie, don't be mad. I too have made threads which I feel haven't got adequate responses. These threads still exists on tabs that I keep refreshing every 10 seconds till this day.I say keep at it. You will eventually get a response. Please be grateful when that happens.

so just.. keep posting? How often should I bump it? How often should I repost it?

So the opioid questions.. I mean yeah, they gotta be answered by someone like Rhizo (I'm sure there's more people than him that can answer, but yes, it's a specific kind of person) u know of anybody specifically like that? I hate that the answer to my question, which is really important, hinges on this kind of person answering. I wish I didn't have to bother people.

About SN though - I think my questions are pretty obvious. Unless I phrase them weird.

Pretty much it's just
1. asking for sources that a US person could get.
2 and asking if the effects hurt and if they do, why is it so popular?
and then I think I just saw one person talk about extra supplies and I wondered what those were.
To me, those seem pretty answerable.

And sometimes recently, I can't sense if I'm being brush or rude, so I'm sorry if I come across that way to anybody. Trust me, I don't mean it.

 

[SVEN]

so just.. keep posting? How often should I bump it? How often should I repost it?

So the opioid questions.. I mean yeah, they gotta be answered by someone like Rhizo (I'm sure there's more people than him that can answer, but yes, it's a specific kind of person) u know of anybody specifically like that? I hate that the answer to my question, which is really important, hinges on this kind of person answering. I wish I didn't have to bother people.

About SN though - I think my questions are pretty obvious. Unless I phrase them weird.

Pretty much it's just
1. asking for sources that a US person could get.
2 and asking if the effects hurt and if they do, why is it so popular?
and then I think I just saw one person talk about extra supplies and I wondered what those were.
To me, those seem pretty answerable.

And sometimes recently, I can't sense if I'm being brush or rude, so I'm sorry if I come across that way to anybody. Trust me, I don't mean it.

1) i don't believe the majority of members know where they can safely order SN. The few who do decrease in number as they ctb. The remainder are, I'd imagine, very cautious about communicating any information because of mistrust of posters who ask for the info.
2)The only folk who can truly answer your question accurately are dead. From the anecdotal accounts available it seems to be more discomfort than pain. It seems that feelings of nausea and vomiting can be expected. I expect this method is popular because it's non violent, can be carried out in your own bed and if the required products can be obtained there isn't any great knowledge or expertise needed to be successful.
3) i don't know what "extra supplies" would be, unless it's more of the products to have in reserve if required.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

1) i don't believe the majority of members know where they can safely order SN. The few who do decrease in number as they ctb. The remainder are, I'd imagine, very cautious about communicating any information because of mistrust of posters who ask for the info.
2)The only folk who can truly answer your question accurately are dead. From the anecdotal accounts available it seems to be more discomfort than pain. It seems that feelings of nausea and vomiting can be expected. I expect this method is popular because it's non violent, can be carried out in your own bed and if the required products can be obtained there isn't any great knowledge or expertise needed to be successful.
3) i don't know what "extra supplies" would be, unless it's more of the products to have in reserve if required.

hmm. okay....

Is it possible to take comforting drugs so that you don't experience discomfort? I mean, idk if you'd know that sorry.

I..I hope someone can answer my opioid questions soon..don't know where rhizomorph or the toxicologists went

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think a lot of the time, people don't answer because, they don't know themselves. I find it kind of curious when members get angry about it. Like maybe they think everyone here is a panel of experts and they're witholding the information from them. I suspect a lot of us are here because, we don't know either! If we knew that much, the likelihood is we would have used that information to despatch ourselves already.

With regards to SN sources, I think the main concern at the moment is that the DMC source is possibly compromised or at least, a lot of members are reporting welfare checks. That source seems to be talked about here more than others. So- that may be why in that case. Plus, there's heightened paranoia I suppose about sharing sources when they are being compromised and the site is under scrutiny again. I can understand the frustration though.

 

[Griever]

I try to reply to threads that have no or few answers, but if I don't have answers to certain questions or just don't know what to say, then I can't think of anything better than to answer with ---> <--- and I feel kind of bad about it

 

[Caribbean Sky]

I think a lot of the time, people don't answer because, they don't know themselves. I find it kind of curious when members get angry about it. Like maybe they think everyone here is a panel of experts and they're witholding the information from them. I suspect a lot of us are here because, we don't know either! If we knew that much, the likelihood is we would have used that information to despatch ourselves already.

With regards to SN sources, I think the main concern at the moment is that the DMC source is possibly compromised or at least, a lot of members are reporting welfare checks. That source seems to be talked about here more than others. So- that may be why in that case. Plus, there's heightened paranoia I suppose about sharing sources when they are being compromised and the site is under scrutiny again. I can understand the frustration though.

angry? no. not at all. just sad and scared.
I don't think everyone's an expert. But I swear I regularly see other threads get answered.

Yeah the site being under scrutiny...? Do you think that's stopping people qualified (who know the answer) to answer my opioid questions - like the opioid megathread creator - from answering? I hope not. the vomit emoji is because I'm sick with worry. I have sort of a deadline so I hope I can find out soon.
Trust me, if I did not have to bother people on this forum for the answers, I wouldn't! I feel so annoying posting here.

I try to reply to threads that have no or few answers, but if I don't have answers to certain questions or just don't know what to say, then I can't think of anything better than to answer with ---> <--- and I feel kind of bad about it

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel bad.

 

[Griever]

angry? no. not at all. just sad and scared.
I don't think everyone's an expert. But I swear I regularly see other threads get answered.

Yeah the site being under scrutiny...? Do you think that's stopping people qualified (who know the answer) to answer my opioid questions - like the opioid megathread creator - from answering? I hope not. the vomit emoji is because I'm sick with worry. I have sort of a deadline so I hope I can find out soon.
Trust me, if I did not have to bother people on this forum for the answers, I wouldn't! I feel so annoying posting here.

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel bad.

It's all good, you didn't make me feel bad

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I do that all the time at home and at work and at church, every day, over and over and it drives me nuts. I ask a question or make an observation or try to make a joke, and all of a sudden WHAM everyone hates me. I think I almost got fired by mistake. I had no idea! It's so frustrating and I never see it coming. Hang in there and keep trying is all I can say? I don't have many answers myself, I mostly make meaningless replies and the next day wonder why I wrote that.

 

[SVEN]

angry? no. not at all. just sad and scared.
I don't think everyone's an expert. But I swear I regularly see other threads get answered.

Yeah the site being under scrutiny...? Do you think that's stopping people qualified (who know the answer) to answer my opioid questions - like the opioid megathread creator - from answering? I hope not. the vomit emoji is because I'm sick with worry. I have sort of a deadline so I hope I can find out soon.
Trust me, if I did not have to bother people on this forum for the answers, I wouldn't! I feel so annoying posting here.

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel bad.

No, I don't believe that the perception that the site is being watched has anything to do with you not gaining the information you seek.
I don't believe that detailed info of the sort you want is generally known to most, perhaps all of us.
I also suspect that anyone who does have that specialised type of knowledge would be reluctant to get involved with you as we're all fighting to deal with our own demons and problems and they may well fear that you'd just keep on and on with all types of repeated queries.