clayp

clayp

Student
Sep 24, 2020
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After being in so many doctors being in a hospital ward for a month and all the crazy medicine they gave me. I believe less and less in recovery.tried all meds you can imagine, guess my gaba bit is damaged beyond control.
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

Enlightened
Aug 6, 2020
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Years ago I used to believe I could recover.
I would think "One day I'll take back control of my emotions, just like Liam Neeson took back his daughter in that film".
But it didn't happen and things got worse.
 
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schopenh

schopenh

Specialist
Oct 21, 2019
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Analogously I have been waiting and waiting for my nerves to heal from trauma years ago and it's never happened. Then my bladder started to fail as well recently so life just got worse. Some of us are just very, very unfortunate.
 
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Chupacabra 44

Chupacabra 44

If boredom were a CTB method, I would be long gone
Sep 13, 2020
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Analogously I have been waiting and waiting for my nerves to heal from trauma years ago and it's never happened. Then my bladder started to fail as well recently so life just got worse. Some of us are just very, very unfortunate.


I recently shared with my primary physician during my annual physical that it seems to me like once the body starts breaking down everything slowly starts falling apart. I told him it felt like an older used car - how once the used car starts to break down and one system fails that this leads to another system failure, so on and so forth.
Surprisingly, he did not agree with my view, so I'm not sure what the answer is. But, for my middle-aged body it definitely feels like one step forward two steps back; unfortunately, not a misstatement.
 
schopenh

schopenh

Specialist
Oct 21, 2019
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I recently shared with my primary physician during my annual physical that it seems to me like once the body starts breaking down everything slowly starts falling apart. I told him it felt like an older used car - how once the used car starts to break down and one system fails that this leads to another system failure, so on and so forth.
Surprisingly, he did not agree with my view, so I'm not sure what the answer is. But, for my middle-aged body it definitely feels like one step forward two steps back; unfortunately, not a misstatement.
I think for me I had the initial issue, then I had anterior surgery which left a lot scar tissue around the urogenital area, I was on corticosteroids for months, as well as antibiotics, opioids, anti-convulsants, anti-depressants, stomach liners, with nerve ablations and steroid injections and it all just worked together to produce the second disease. Also my stomach is just destroyed from all that as well. I don't drink, smoke, am thin and eat very clean but it's just always upset now, never had any issue before the medications. So the treatment to one disease caused the next, happens a lot; although you possibly know this and sorry if you do. My family are perplexed why I don't want any further 'treatment' for my issues. 10% chance of helping, 100% chance of giving me other problems, no thanks.
 
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clayp

clayp

Student
Sep 24, 2020
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Years ago I used to believe I could recover.
I would think "One day I'll take back control of my emotions, just like Liam Neeson took back his daughter in that film".
But it didn't happen and things got worse.
Yeah I bet my brain is damaged beyond repair at this state. Will the brain ever heal itself?
 

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