Venting no point when no one cares

[gourry]

ive reached out for help so much lately. been to the hospital 3x within the last month. cops visited 6x in the last month. called so many help lines.

even when i tell them my exact plan, i get sent home or told to go to bed. i dont know why. nobody takes me seriously when i reach out for help, and i have been begging for help since i was 8 years old (21 now, almost 22)

i have mostly been staying around for education (helps me feel useful), my girlfriend, my pets and family. i feel it is selfish to put them through constantly worrying about me.

Not reaching out for help on this board (or suicide advice obviously), just replies from people who relate or any replies in general. Not looking for "omg, i care.." type shit, dont expect to get that here but still. Been drinking so probably a shitty first post, sorry.

 

[nails]

i relate 100%. i've been struggling with mental illness for most of my life, i've been expressing my desire to die since i was 7 or 8 years old. i think that's partially why my family doesn't take me seriously or care that much—the whole "suicidal" thing lost its novelty. i never really get better, so people just stop caring or assume i'm exaggerating things, even when i get hospitalized for mental health struggles. i usually don't even receive a response when i express my desire/plans to die.
i'm glad you have some reasons to keep going, i hope you can find some relief and people who will treat your struggle with the concern and urgency it deserves.