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blue101
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- Jul 3, 2020
- 11
hi. ive been this way since i as i guess 8-9 i have a diagnosed bordeline personaality disorder, conductive disorder and ADHD dealing with these growing up was fucking difficult like one of my main traits fro adhd is impulsivity so have bpd when i ge mad or upset i do alot of things without thinking them through. ive been doing dbt for two years and anger mangment for four neither has really helped. i steal things alot i pickpokit and i fight ever since i was little i would do crazy things like sneekout and for teenages that could be normal but i would do it o meet older men, get drunk, do drugs etc i wasnt a good kid i mean hell fist secondary school i went to i threw my teachers computor at her i get mad alot and i think thats because over the years i push ervything down all of my emotions and pain and sadness so when i cantt ake it anymore it comes out i anger i hate how i am i dont wanna be here but i feel like i cant leave yet i dont know what it is im waiting for i used to be so ready to just let go of life but now theres him maybe im waiting for him.