rainonme
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- May 22, 2020
- 34
I think I am looking for those words..."I'll be there for you..."..."I don't want you to die..."...but they never come.
Not from my own mother and not from my partner. It makes me feel like yes, this is the right decision.
There is nothing to be done. I am simply a burden.
I told my mom directly that I was going to kill myself and she sort of smiled before saying that someone must be putting stuff in my head. No one's putting stuff in my head, if anything, you are making it worse and you don't want to accept that.
I don't know about my partner. I'm tired of bothering them. I know that the more I spiral the less attractive I become to them because they don't have patience. And that's ok. A partner isn't a therapist.
I have accepted that I am incapable of dealing with pain and suffering. I don't see the point if I only get a few fragments of happiness in my life. Not even love has become to be enough.
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Not from my own mother and not from my partner. It makes me feel like yes, this is the right decision.
There is nothing to be done. I am simply a burden.
I told my mom directly that I was going to kill myself and she sort of smiled before saying that someone must be putting stuff in my head. No one's putting stuff in my head, if anything, you are making it worse and you don't want to accept that.
I don't know about my partner. I'm tired of bothering them. I know that the more I spiral the less attractive I become to them because they don't have patience. And that's ok. A partner isn't a therapist.
I have accepted that I am incapable of dealing with pain and suffering. I don't see the point if I only get a few fragments of happiness in my life. Not even love has become to be enough.
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