immrw
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- Jan 22, 2023
- 82
I've been hospitalized 3 times for failed attempts. After my first one, I received so many messages from friends/family members saying how much they love me and that I can always talk to them.
After my 2nd and 3rd attempts... crickets. No one said anything. It's like people only say this shit to you to absolve themselves morally. They did what they could, wasn't anything more they could have done.
The thing is, I was hurting just as bad in all 3 attempts. I wasn't attention seeking. I genuinely wanted my life to end. But ig it lost novelty and was old news for people. My pain became easier and easier to ignore. My dad told me to "stop thinking funny."
A giant joke I must be to everyone around me. Who fails CTB three times? Losers, probably.
After my 2nd and 3rd attempts... crickets. No one said anything. It's like people only say this shit to you to absolve themselves morally. They did what they could, wasn't anything more they could have done.
The thing is, I was hurting just as bad in all 3 attempts. I wasn't attention seeking. I genuinely wanted my life to end. But ig it lost novelty and was old news for people. My pain became easier and easier to ignore. My dad told me to "stop thinking funny."
A giant joke I must be to everyone around me. Who fails CTB three times? Losers, probably.