Umbreon
Weed Addict
- Aug 20, 2020
- 90
No one can know why I want to CTB except me. I believe I'm the only person who wants to kill themselves for the reason that I do. It's an oddly specific reason that is literally impossible to fix that's very stressful for me in combination with my other problems and it's too embarrassing and weird to open up to anybody about.
Anyways I think I'd rather die than finish this online appliance repair course. I look like garbage because of my bad hygiene and unhealthy lifestyle on top of not being able to go to the doctor or dentist. Already withdrew from community college twice with my grand dads money because I'm a moron and my overdrafted account is closed and has no money. I don't even know how I'd get the stimmy now!! Not that fixing my financial problems will fix anything at this rate.
I just kept self sabotaging more and more things once I flew off the deep end not working or in school to the point where I have even less energy . I've been fired by all of my bosses, the real world is so much colder than I could have ever known. I just want to stop thinking and being forced live already.
Anyways I think I'd rather die than finish this online appliance repair course. I look like garbage because of my bad hygiene and unhealthy lifestyle on top of not being able to go to the doctor or dentist. Already withdrew from community college twice with my grand dads money because I'm a moron and my overdrafted account is closed and has no money. I don't even know how I'd get the stimmy now!! Not that fixing my financial problems will fix anything at this rate.
I just kept self sabotaging more and more things once I flew off the deep end not working or in school to the point where I have even less energy . I've been fired by all of my bosses, the real world is so much colder than I could have ever known. I just want to stop thinking and being forced live already.