Alwaysbadtime
Enlightened
- Jun 28, 2021
- 1,158
I can't go on Youtube anymore. Yesterday I tried to watch something and a sad animal bit/commercial was on...there was a kitten meowing in a cage and bad shit they were saying...I had to x out. I can't handle this. A crazy sad donkey bit/commercial as well as an owl bit has rocked me. I can't take it.
I can't even finish the Aaron Hernandez documentary I was sort of enjoying because my bf lost it and got pissed I enjoy dark shit and he hated the stupid generalizations people were making about what drove Aaron to do this. I will try and put it on, but shit with the remote etc is confusing.
He got back from his 2.5 day party bender with his pals and was shitty yesterday and shitty today about me not cleaning etc etc. Then a while later starts talking....about movies, people going to space....etc etc. I am just supposed to get over the aggression and talking shittily and loudly to me. I said when he was doing it- oh so you can say whatever you want to me, but I can't say anything to you. I went to clean my car because it is disgusting and he saw it yesterday on the inside. Washing and vacuuming my car in the middle of the day on a Monday, thinking about how when my mom was my age she was being uber productive, challenged and supported in a lucrative career...and I have nothing and yet on TOP of this she labels me mentally not well. FUCKING BITCH.
Stress gives me acid reflux. Music is playing. The Rolling Stones....I hate them. So entitled, no struggle...rich and fucking entertained. FUCK THEM.
I told my bf in a text that the tv shows he watches are a trigger. I told him in person Family Guy on everyday is a major trigger....and he is gone having fun and comes back and immediately turns on....FAMILY GUY. Then Rick and Morty until he falls asleep.
I'm so fucking pissed about all of this. Of course I wanted things differently. I'm stuck. I told one of my parents this in a text etc etc and didn't get a fucking text back. It's like: gee thanks for producing me only to be a fucking adult struggling and feeling like shit every second and don't bother responding....enjoy your fucking productive and entertained existence.
I have 0 to do and I don't want to hear from any fucking bragging trolls. IDGAF who you are and what you are doing.
So, no more YouTube...I've got to plan my escape. I can't stand knowing about all the others suffering including animals.
I can't even finish the Aaron Hernandez documentary I was sort of enjoying because my bf lost it and got pissed I enjoy dark shit and he hated the stupid generalizations people were making about what drove Aaron to do this. I will try and put it on, but shit with the remote etc is confusing.
He got back from his 2.5 day party bender with his pals and was shitty yesterday and shitty today about me not cleaning etc etc. Then a while later starts talking....about movies, people going to space....etc etc. I am just supposed to get over the aggression and talking shittily and loudly to me. I said when he was doing it- oh so you can say whatever you want to me, but I can't say anything to you. I went to clean my car because it is disgusting and he saw it yesterday on the inside. Washing and vacuuming my car in the middle of the day on a Monday, thinking about how when my mom was my age she was being uber productive, challenged and supported in a lucrative career...and I have nothing and yet on TOP of this she labels me mentally not well. FUCKING BITCH.
Stress gives me acid reflux. Music is playing. The Rolling Stones....I hate them. So entitled, no struggle...rich and fucking entertained. FUCK THEM.
I told my bf in a text that the tv shows he watches are a trigger. I told him in person Family Guy on everyday is a major trigger....and he is gone having fun and comes back and immediately turns on....FAMILY GUY. Then Rick and Morty until he falls asleep.
I'm so fucking pissed about all of this. Of course I wanted things differently. I'm stuck. I told one of my parents this in a text etc etc and didn't get a fucking text back. It's like: gee thanks for producing me only to be a fucking adult struggling and feeling like shit every second and don't bother responding....enjoy your fucking productive and entertained existence.
I have 0 to do and I don't want to hear from any fucking bragging trolls. IDGAF who you are and what you are doing.
So, no more YouTube...I've got to plan my escape. I can't stand knowing about all the others suffering including animals.