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Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
255
Title says it all pretty much. So many valuable years, half my life at the moment, just gone. Even if it were to pull a 180, me memories would still be flooded of misery. I've set many weekends at my last, but it's official that 2020 is my final year, with December 5th more than likely being my final day. I'll create a follow up thread if this seems to be the case.
 
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hoping to lose hope

hoping to lose hope

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Nov 14, 2020
849
It is depressing when you consider how much of life has been "wasted" and spent feeling awful.
We have to accept it though
 
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Sakura94

empty
Nov 26, 2020
673
I'd love a do over because there is so much I've missed that is no longer retrievable.
I actually don't regret time wasted in itself because it was my time to waste and there is possibly more potential time left if I don't CTB. I do have bad memories but I can repress them.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,164
Me too.
I always think how cool it would be to have a time machine and fix my past mistakes. Maybe I wouldn't be such a suicidal guy.
 
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foxdie

Got my ticket
Aug 18, 2020
1,011
I relate to this so much. I spiral in these thoughts until I have an anxiety attack and I have to stop. It's fucking brutal, I feel you fam.
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
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Its very understandable. I think most of us would be a bit sad about that aspect .
 
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Mistake of Nature

Mistake of Nature

A shadow suspended on dust
Mar 30, 2020
159
I can definitely relate. As I get closer to the end, I've been thinking about everything I've missed out on. Even if my life were to magically get better, how could I deal with the fact that I've wasted my youth and missed out on so many critical experiences? The regret is too overwhelming to live with, and I'd just spend the rest of my life playing catch-up.

I'm sorry to hear that you've been feeling similarly, and I hope you are able to find some peace and comfort in one way or another.
 
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Elementalist
Nov 11, 2020
886
Yep no matter how much better I get I'll always regret and be sad at all the time I "wasted," idk if it can even be considered wasted because it's not like I'm in the mental state to really do anything.

Sometimes I think even if my anxiety went away I'd still want to ctb
 
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