rationaltake
I'm rocking it - in another universe
- Sep 28, 2021
- 2,712
I can't accept the state of this carcass I inhabit. And never will.
It ruins my every moment. I am always aware of it. I feel this flesh is rubbish. I feel inferior because of it.
I have several severe mental health conditions. I'm old so I should just go.
It's hard to explain it all. I don't feel this body is worthy of anything. So won't buy clothes. I see myself as a caricature if I have or wear anything nice.
I don't function. My neighbour is pretty much my carer. Absolutely adores me. It just hurts as I can't live like this.
I haven't explained it very well.
I have an amazing friend who really loves me.
I have SN plus an AE and an antacid.
I would want to live if my body wasn't covered in loose skin and stretch marks. Though I refuse to accept certain memories. So who knows?
Want to ctb. My neighbour will be devastated. Two people close to my neighbour committed suicide. My friend will be hurt.
Agony. Every moment.
It ruins my every moment. I am always aware of it. I feel this flesh is rubbish. I feel inferior because of it.
I have several severe mental health conditions. I'm old so I should just go.
It's hard to explain it all. I don't feel this body is worthy of anything. So won't buy clothes. I see myself as a caricature if I have or wear anything nice.
I don't function. My neighbour is pretty much my carer. Absolutely adores me. It just hurts as I can't live like this.
I haven't explained it very well.
I have an amazing friend who really loves me.
I have SN plus an AE and an antacid.
I would want to live if my body wasn't covered in loose skin and stretch marks. Though I refuse to accept certain memories. So who knows?
Want to ctb. My neighbour will be devastated. Two people close to my neighbour committed suicide. My friend will be hurt.
Agony. Every moment.