justfloating
Student
- Feb 13, 2020
- 172
I don't mean the act of ctb, just the death itself.
I used to be so afraid of dying because of all the potentials i could miss out on in the future. For example i would think about how its sad to die before I've ever been married or had a child, or job etc. But I've since come to realise that all these things are pointless, because one day I will die and no matter how I die my existence will end and there will be nothing left, I will be dead. I just simply no longer fear death.
I've found it very freeing to think like this because it allows me to to whatever the fuck i want. I want to try a new drug, I go for it because if i were to die it doesn't matter because i will be dead and so the consequences don't matter to me.
It's hard to fully explain how I feel but hopefully you understand.
I used to be so afraid of dying because of all the potentials i could miss out on in the future. For example i would think about how its sad to die before I've ever been married or had a child, or job etc. But I've since come to realise that all these things are pointless, because one day I will die and no matter how I die my existence will end and there will be nothing left, I will be dead. I just simply no longer fear death.
I've found it very freeing to think like this because it allows me to to whatever the fuck i want. I want to try a new drug, I go for it because if i were to die it doesn't matter because i will be dead and so the consequences don't matter to me.
It's hard to fully explain how I feel but hopefully you understand.
