No eye contact, no physical human touch. What is the value of this life?

[Crematoryy]

Not even for a single day,
not even for a single moment,
not even once,
was there anyone nearby
for me.

I've never been visited at home.
I'm convinced I never will be!
Years will pass and no one will come to me;
no one awaits me;
no one.

I create presences where there are none to feel less alone.
Imagining scenarios that don't exist,
Receiving the hug I was never given,
Having dialogues I never had,
To feel loved.

Do you still expect altruism from me?
Do you still ask me not to hate?
How could I not hate?

 

[darksouls]

I gave up hope of having a loving partner a long time ago,
my ex-boyfriends treated me like trash,
I am only looking for a compatible ctb partner now

 

[theDunce]

I gave up hope of having a loving partner a long time ago,
my ex-boyfriends treated me like trash,
I am only looking for a compatible ctb partner now

how do you go about finding a partner, do you find someone looking for the same method or is it location?

Not even for a single day,
not even for a single moment,
not even once,
was there anyone nearby
for me.

I've never been visited at home.
I'm convinced I never will be!
Years will pass and no one will come to me;
no one awaits me;
no one.

I create presences where there are none to feel less alone.
Imagining scenarios that don't exist,
Receiving the hug I was never given,
Having dialogues I never had,
To feel loved.

Do you still expect altruism from me?
Do you still ask me not to hate?
How could I not hate?

This sounds so lonely. Loneliness has to be one of the worst feeling of all time.

 

[darksouls]

how do you go about finding a partner, do you find someone looking for the same method or is it location?

I would let the sympathy decide,
the most important thing is to build trust,
we do not necessarily have to have the same method

 

[theDunce]

I would let the sympathy decide,
the most important thing is to build trust,
we do not necessarily have to have the same method

That is so interesting to me. I am not sure exactly what you mean by "sympathy deciding" but it sounds intriguing. What an interesting idea.

 

[darksouls]

That is so interesting to me. I am not sure exactly what you mean by "sympathy deciding" but it sounds intriguing. What an interesting idea.

sorry for my bad english,
it is not my primary language,
a native english speaker would probably express it in different words

 

[theDunce]

sorry for my bad english,
it is not my primary language,
a native english speaker would probably express it in different words

no it was good English. It just made me think differently is all. which is a good thing. your comments have me thinking how it all would work, finding a partner and pursing the end together. it's a new concept to me.

 

[here_for_now]

i understand your pain. i watch yandere asmr to imagine i have a girlfriend. i hope i can afford SN soon