So basicly it took me three days to post something on this site, i mean to actually find strenght to do it. So i work at family farm, not much work to do right now. It's gonna be harder after summer holidays end so i have about two months to ctb. In winter and maybe in autumm i have to burn in furnace so i don't want to die too tired. Also i want to end it before harvest season. Basicly i have it good right now which means i'm only sad, tired and bored. OCD is not really interfering in my sleep like it used to so i can have some quality sleep which is nice. DOn't really have strenght to end it but i can't go on too long. I don't think medications will help with my depression because there is always something that will make me sad, also if i end up alone i will go homeless which will make ctbing much more difficult. So that is it for now, planning on ctbing tonight or tomorrow but i've been doing it for three months so not sure if i will go through with it.
ewigeruhe
Student
- Jun 26, 2022
- 112
I feel you totally as i am tired and apathetic all the time as well my only hope is that i succeed with ctb in the next few days.
Hopefully you can find the rest and peace you need.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 37,160
I know what it is like to have no energy. I am also tired and I wish that dying is as easy as just choosing to never wake again. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.
I lost huge money and my reputation it destroyed me financially and mentally... It's guilt and shame
I see. You have it bad but maybe life will turn around? Like is it money thing or is there more to it?
Money thing and there is more... I'm not financially stable and I have a family to take care of... I know my future is dark and gloomy and I can't face it
Hi I'm also from India, how much money you lost,
Is there any chance of government writing off farmers debts
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Around 5 lac and my mental health with it too
I don't know. But my pain will end
You can repay it bro, I think you're an educated man have your tried to search for another job
I don't have a debt I have a job it's that I don't have any life skills to run a family my mom do everything for me she buys me clothes and everything now she is getting old and this fear of future is consuming me
I live like a robot my whole life without any emotions... It took away my happiness
Well i understand, i also depend on my family. I have exact fears as you so nothing i can really say to encourage you to live. Whatever you choose i wish you the best of luck.
I lost around 70 lakhs still trying to hang on becausedon't know for how long
I have financial and mental issues ,just like you I also have a old mother who lives for her children so I'm also finding it difficult to leave this world don't how long I can hang on
If I stayed single I would never ever ever thought about suicide it's that I'm running away from responsibilities it is so hard to manage everything when you come from low income group.
Don't know what to say, hope you will be able to find peace of mind somehow
I'm a night guard at post office so I tried partial hanging here many times but it's just a waste of time. Full suspension is the only way to go
I've tried many times but it's hard to lose consciousness then pain gets unbearable and you back out
No that's $6000. I'm not in debt but how do I explain i just want to escape.
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