StarryStarry
Cat Lady
- Oct 25, 2021
- 750
Well, I held out hope to stay where I am, but that hope was just dashed. I had an interview a couple weeks ago and hadn't heard from them so I thought if they hire me then I can stay where I am and keep my furniture and household stuff. Well I emailed them on Friday morning without a response, not wanting to give up quite yet I emailed again this morning. The attorney (aka Ass Hole) finally emailed me back and said, "It was so nice meeting you. Unfortunately, we have gone into a different direction." So, I guess I need to move forward, quit looking back, put my terrifying fear of failure behind me and move 1500 miles from where I am living now. I will literally be starting my life over. I'm 60 years old and this is really hard for me at this age, but the option is to give Sweet Pea up and ctb, which would be great for me, but I don't know what would happen to her - she would probably be euthanized because of her age and health issues. I can't do that. So, I am going to quash the voices in my head that are continually telling me that I'm a failure, I won't succeed at any job, I'll fail at every turn. It's so hard to shut these voices out. If anyone has any idea how to do this I would be oh so grateful to hear. Thank you for listening.